SuicideFuel Trapped In My Own Mind

[Teru Mikami]

I feel like I'm constantly fighting a war with my own brain because of my OCD, I can never relax, I'm in a perpetual state of anxiety. The intrusive thoughts are also really disturbing at times, I keep replaying them over and over in my mind. Right now the scene that's playing on repeat is scooping a foid's eyes out with a spoon, placing them in her vagina, using a vibrator to make her orgasm so her own vaginal walls constrict around her eye balls and explode them before attaching hooks to her vagina that are tied to a truck, flooring it and ripping out her entire reproductive system, including her womb

Why am I so deranged? I'm being tortured by these thoughts, I'm also deathly afraid of cockroaches and I constantly get flashed by images of them by my mind. I hate foids as much as the next brocel but I don't want to keep seeing this, it's disgusting, it makes me wanna throw up, it's sick and there's so much blood. I'm always stressed, always scared about what could happen, what might happen, I just need someone to hug me tight and hold me in their arms, I'm desperate, I need someone to save me

 

[Trident]

same

 

[Animecel2D]

Sounds like a hellish feeling

unfortunately, no one is coming to save you

 

[Zaraj11]

scooping a foid's eyes out with a spoon, placing them in her vagina

attaching hooks to her vagina that are tied to a truck

ripping out her entire reproductive system

wild

 

[Teru Mikami]

unfortunately, no one is coming to save you

What did I do to deserve this?

 

[Teru Mikami]

wild

An understatement if you ask me, of course, I might be a bit biased

 

[suicidecase]

Too much isolation and not enough social interaction is usually the cause

 

[mariomariuss]

Too much isolation and not enough social interaction is usually the cause

same feeling after socializing with others, sometimes even worse, because then I realize how different I am from the masses, atleast im not like them

 

[suicidecase]

same feeling after socializing with others, sometimes even worse, because then I realize how different I am from the masses, atleast im not like them

Maybe you're just Autistic then

 

[mariomariuss]

Maybe you're just Autistic then

lol idk, I haven't been to any psychologists cuz fuck them

 

[Teru Mikami]

atleast im not like them

I wish I was

 

[Pikacel]

Too much isolation and not enough social interaction is usually the cause

100% I have same issue

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

Sounds like a hellish feeling

unfortunately, no one is coming to save you

Not even religion. Only drugs and my cats keep me alive at this point