It has been rough for me to say the least for this year, finding out i got the tism and losing a family pet. its all been so hurtful and confusing to say the least, and thats disregarding all the medical problems from my fucked up body and other shit in my life.
The only form of comfort and affection i ever got was from my family pet, but now he is gone, I am left with nothing. I've known him all my life, and despite being ignored by everyone around me he was always there to comfort me, like when i cam home from a rough day of school he was always there like he could sense it. The only thing that gives me comfort is he died in his sleep last seen eating his favorite meal. i was just in shocks and sad the onl thing that cared about me, even if it was conditional in some sense was now gone.
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I think thats the hardest part is just the comfort of having any form of attention care and physical presence, nothing i could ever have from humans, im seen more as human by animals then other humans. no my friend is gone
I know i should go and get another pet, but it can't ever replace what i lost, i feel its too early maybe its just the sadness. not matter how much i try to 'grow' everything feels like it ends in decay. The har part is realizing everyone goes away in the end, and it will just be me by myself with no choise in the matter. All I feel now is apathy really, with a mild interest of chaotic fun but nothing else aside from deep sadnes
I mean why give a shit about anything unless it benefits you. really i feel like a hollow person now just feeling desperate for touch or something or someone to tell me thing will get better to find any sort of comfort but i know wont get any. hell i thought about escorts but im too ugly for that, i dont want to be humiliated or mocked like i always do im probably going to forget this post i should probably stop drinking.
I guess question of the day tou got any good pets to keep youz happy>
The only form of comfort and affection i ever got was from my family pet, but now he is gone, I am left with nothing. I've known him all my life, and despite being ignored by everyone around me he was always there to comfort me, like when i cam home from a rough day of school he was always there like he could sense it. The only thing that gives me comfort is he died in his sleep last seen eating his favorite meal. i was just in shocks and sad the onl thing that cared about me, even if it was conditional in some sense was now gone.
eI think thats the hardest part is just the comfort of having any form of attention care and physical presence, nothing i could ever have from humans, im seen more as human by animals then other humans. no my friend is gone
I know i should go and get another pet, but it can't ever replace what i lost, i feel its too early maybe its just the sadness. not matter how much i try to 'grow' everything feels like it ends in decay. The har part is realizing everyone goes away in the end, and it will just be me by myself with no choise in the matter. All I feel now is apathy really, with a mild interest of chaotic fun but nothing else aside from deep sadnes
I mean why give a shit about anything unless it benefits you. really i feel like a hollow person now just feeling desperate for touch or something or someone to tell me thing will get better to find any sort of comfort but i know wont get any. hell i thought about escorts but im too ugly for that, i dont want to be humiliated or mocked like i always do im probably going to forget this post i should probably stop drinking.
I guess question of the day tou got any good pets to keep youz happy>
