SuicideFuel These past few weeks have been terrible.

[scrully]

I thought my life was bad during this summer break when I was in and out of the hospital due to my heart disease but shit has gotten much fucking worse.

First my condition is making me drown out of energy really quick. Some days are better then others but on some days all I can do is lay in bed and even when I turn my head hurts and there is a ringing in my ears.
Second my work might not let me extend my contract, I've emailed and called about it but they won't. might sound like a good thing but I really wanna safe money to move out which bring me to my third point and why I wanna leave the house so bad.
My mom just doesn't give me a break, she is always finding someting to complain about its either "you're wasting your life away in your room" or "You never do anything useful" (even though I go to college, internship AND work) or "You never do anything with your siblings" when she knows that they're the ones sneaking out of the house so I don't go with them. "You never do anything with friends" When she knows I don't have any friends, never had and probably never will have. she knows all the bullying that has happened to me.

I wanna move out and get the fuck out of here. Its driving me crazy and I already have a heart disease to deal with all this stress will make it even worse. I hate it man.

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

brutal.
IT won't touch this.

 

[aryanmikmaq]

No offense but your mom sounds like a bitch

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

there is a ringing in my ears

truecel trait: you get tinnitus when you turn your head

 

[WastedPotential]

brutal.
IT won't touch this.

I thought my life was bad during this summer break when I was in and out of the hospital due to my heart disease but shit has gotten much fucking worse.

Absolutely brutal I can't imagine being bedridden like that. luckily never had to experience it, truly debilitating

First my condition is making me drown out of energy really quick. Some days are better then others but on some days all I can do is lay in bed and even when I turn my head hurts and there is a ringing in my ears.

if it makes you feel any better, Some days I can't even get out of bed for a dentist appointment, my motivation to get out of bed has plummetted lately and to just sleep in has skyrocketed

Second my work might not let me extend my contract, I've emailed and called about it but they won't. might sound like a good thing but I really wanna safe money to move out which bring me to my third point and why I wanna leave the house so bad.
My mom just doesn't give me a break, she is always finding someting to complain about its either "you're wasting your life away in your room" or "You never do anything useful" (even though I go to college, internship AND work) or "You never do anything with your siblings" when she knows that they're the ones sneaking out of the house so I don't go with them. "You never do anything with friends" When she knows I don't have any friends, never had and probably never will have. she knows all the bullying that has happened to me.

I wanna move out and get the fuck out of here. Its driving me crazy and I already have a heart disease to deal with all this stress will make it even worse. I hate it man.

Fucking insane, your mother needs to have more sympathy for your condition. extra brutal that you got laid off, hopefully you can find an income source soon. I can see you're trying. hope life gets better brocel.

 

[scrully]

No offense but your mom sounds like a bitch

the worst is that she is totally different with my siblings. she's only like that to me.

truecel trait: you get tinnitus when you turn your head

brutal one

if it makes you feel any better, Some days I can't even get out of bed for a dentist appointment, my motivation to get out of bed has plummetted lately and to just sleep in has skyrocketed

Brutal man. it really makes life even harder then it already is.