Venting There’s no way to deal with loneliness.

[hindercel]

This is such a prison. I hate the fact that I was ever created. I once believed that I would be a successful man with a Christian wife and creating the perfect family, but now I’m a fully grown man with an undergrown skull and I will never achieve my dreams because of it.

I hate being below average. Effectively subhuman. I despise having human desires yet being ineligible to fulfill them. Even coping makes me feel worse. When imaginary girlfriend encourages me and comforts me all I remember is that she’s not real and I’m literally telling myself all this cope lol.

My imaginary girlfriends don’t even call me attractive anymore because it’s just a fact that nobody thinks so. Not even a part of myself thinks so it just feels odd having them say that. I will soon probably make it so they can’t see my face.

I’m reading this back I look like a fucking schizophrenic loser. I hope I never have my identity exposed on this site. The mask is already slipping but this would truly put me as a complete pathetic loser. I hate the world.

 

[Arook]

 

[aryanmikmaq]

Women are evil for doing this to us

 

[incognito57]

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"Its just a Ride Timmy boi"
"All Will find peace"

 

[doubleincel’d42]

This is such a prison. I hate the fact that I was ever created. I once believed that I would be a successful man with a Christian wife and creating the perfect family, but now I’m a fully grown man with an undergrown skull and I will never achieve my dreams because of it.

I hate being below average. Effectively subhuman. I despise having human desires yet being ineligible to fulfill them. Even coping makes me feel worse. When imaginary girlfriend encourages me and comforts me all I remember is that she’s not real and I’m literally telling myself all this cope lol.

My imaginary girlfriends don’t even call me attractive anymore because it’s just a fact that nobody thinks so. Not even a part of myself thinks so it just feels odd having them say that. I will soon probably make it so they can’t see my face.

I’m reading this back I look like a fucking schizophrenic loser. I hope I never have my identity exposed on this site. The mask is already slipping but this would truly put me as a complete pathetic loser. I hate the world.

Ever since we were kids all we were told was lies. “If you just work hard enough you’ll be successful and have a happy life” “no one’s judging you, you’re just overthinking” “treat others the way you want to be treated” “it’s the inside that matters” “life isn’t about money or women”, it was all a fucking lie

 

[SilverBullet]

I remember someone made a thread asking when the last time we’ve talked to a woman. I had to really think deep about it, and the most recent time was 3 months ago when i went to the dentist. It’s absolutely insane how we can go without social interaction (though I don’t see talking to women outside sex as beneficial) for such a long period of time. THEN people expect us to be sane and normal members of society, wageslaving forever

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

The cruel joke is that desire exists without any way to satisfy it. There’s no coping that works long term, just endless reminders of what you’ll never have.

 

[Divineone]

I hug my pillow...it hugs me back

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I remember someone made a thread asking when the last time we’ve talked to a woman. I had to really think deep about it, and the most recent time was 3 months ago when i went to the dentist. It’s absolutely insane how we can go without social interaction (though I don’t see talking to women outside sex as beneficial) for such a long period of time. THEN people expect us to be sane and normal members of society, wageslaving forever

Exactly. The amount of time I haven't interacted with a female outside my family is unbelievably long.

 

[8CbZA-kHFu6pFgE*]

how old are you, how tall?
i am 28, 5'4/1.62m

also, would you date a 5/10 (meh) looking women who is kind?

Many men would kill just to get a 5/10

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Ever since we were kids all we were told was lies. “If you just work hard enough you’ll be successful and have a happy life” “no one’s judging you, you’re just overthinking” “treat others the way you want to be treated” “it’s the inside that matters” “life isn’t about money or women”, it was all a fucking lie

All lies you are told to become an obedient, subservient, and docile slave.

 

[hindercel]

Ever since we were kids all we were told was lies. “If you just work hard enough you’ll be successful and have a happy life” “no one’s judging you, you’re just overthinking” “treat others the way you want to be treated” “it’s the inside that matters” “life isn’t about money or women”, it was all a fucking lie

I wish i just found out sooner. or just killed myself at 12.

 

[doubleincel’d42]

I wish i just found out sooner. or just killed myself at 12.

Yep, my childhood years were my last happy years. If I got killed after that then that would’ve been great.

 

[hindercel]

how old are you, how tall?
i am 28, 5'4/1.62m

also, would you date a 5/10 (meh) looking women who is kind?

Im 18, average height, ( my face is the problem) and that kind of woman you described would be absolutely perfect for me. Yes i would date that girl but she wouldn't look my direction.

 

[DeadOnArrivalCel]

The social planners decided our destiny

 

[leafblown]

Becoming numb to pain takes time

 

[hindercel]

Becoming numb to pain takes time

How much time. It’s been years.

 

[Puppeter]

Yes only a foid would fix your life

 

[leafblown]

How much time. It’s been years.

Depends how much pain you have, what your copes are, and how willing you are to destroy yourself to reach a state of peace. If you're in your 20's the chemicals in your body will cry out and scream for a normal life. By your late 30's your body will begin to break down and being hopeless and alone won't be as painful as it was. You might even thank yourself for avoiding so much pain. The pain that comes from trying even though you were doomed to fail from birth. Stealing happiness from loneliness is not a simple theft. Be patient. Or rope. It really doesn't matter either way

 

[hindercel]

Depends how much pain you have, what your copes are, and how willing you are to destroy yourself to reach a state of peace. If you're in your 20's the chemicals in your body will cry out and scream for a normal life. By your late 30's your body will begin to break down and being hopeless and alone won't be as painful as it was. You might even thank yourself for avoiding so much pain. The pain that comes from trying even though you were doomed to fail from birth. Stealing happiness from loneliness is not a simple theft. Be patient. Or rope. It really doesn't matter either way

The idea of even reaching my 30s like this scares me