
Billowel
Ed junior
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i am catholic and i have no real interest in escorts,but i get tempted a lot to just give up on everything,travel somewhere to fornicate and then maybe rope or throw myself in some ditch and lie down till i die. i don't want to betray god,but when the pain comes the mind numbs,and man this is a lot of pain.I escortcel sometimes. It is always the same kind of girls: Russians, Ukrainians ...
obviously god always gives enough graces for man to never sin,so if such a thing happened,it would be purely my fault.saying this,in case some random degenerate excuses degeneracy with some fatalistic philosophy like many people i have seen.
i don't think i will last for much longer.if i survive for two-three more years i would be amazed.i will be going backhome in hopes of things getting a bit better,but i don't know. my life is a mess.feelings to rope returned a few months ago,despite them being gone for a long long time,and i feel much calmer and much more acceptive of it,which is incredibly scary.this life is hell