I just can't look past it, the fact that NTs and even other autists, can detect autistic people in seconds on sight, even in still images is more than I can bear, the fact it's consistent among everyone and seems to be built into our brains actual hardware makes me want to scream and I can't see people as anything more than evil monkeys now, it explains EVERYTHING I've experienced, all the stares, all the people at the gym who don't interact with me at all and seem creeped out by me, the fact I'm 26 and the only person I interact with is my mum, everything makes sense, the most brutal part of this study is the fact that it DOESN'T FADE OVER TIME, no matter how much exposure NT's have to you, this mental bias is super robust and doesn't change i.e they'll always find you weird and creepy no matter what or how long they know you for, there's is absolutely no way that this reality isn't some kind of cosmic prison or punishment
Since January I've managed to stay off the heavy drinking bar two beers here and there, but since I discovered this shit I genuinely wanna dive straight back into getting drunk round the clock, it's fucking horrible, all I can think about is going er every second I can't tolerate this
Since January I've managed to stay off the heavy drinking bar two beers here and there, but since I discovered this shit I genuinely wanna dive straight back into getting drunk round the clock, it's fucking horrible, all I can think about is going er every second I can't tolerate this
