Late at night I was depressed, I told my parents that its the FACE that matters and how growing up I had no positive influence. Everywhere i go i was rejected.
I asked my mom why she goes out wearing makeup if looking good is not important. I told them nobody likes a deformed guy.
They understood a little, they still tells me to work, I even found a job and was wageslaving for a month, but the co worker was a bitch cconstantly talking to her boyfriend over phone and telling me to do the job quick, i left the Job afterwards. Wageslaving is beyond stressful. and on top of that no motivation , no life, no wife no girlfriend.
I met my old buddy today after many years, he showed me my oneitis with her live in boyfriend. It was devastating.
After working hard, never having bad intention towards others, respecting people, I get nothing. throughout school, high school, college its just negative reinforcements, bullying, constant stress.
not one day goes by without feeling that I am missing out on something.
I asked my mom why she goes out wearing makeup if looking good is not important. I told them nobody likes a deformed guy.
They understood a little, they still tells me to work, I even found a job and was wageslaving for a month, but the co worker was a bitch cconstantly talking to her boyfriend over phone and telling me to do the job quick, i left the Job afterwards. Wageslaving is beyond stressful. and on top of that no motivation , no life, no wife no girlfriend.
I met my old buddy today after many years, he showed me my oneitis with her live in boyfriend. It was devastating.
After working hard, never having bad intention towards others, respecting people, I get nothing. throughout school, high school, college its just negative reinforcements, bullying, constant stress.
not one day goes by without feeling that I am missing out on something.
