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Venting The realization that I am now older than ER and will be turning 23 as a KHHV has been the most soul-destroying blackpill for me in a while.

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I officially made it longer in life than the figurehead of a man who went out and killed people due to his lifelong sexual frustration. Elliot rodger died just before he turned 22 years & 11 months old...well, I am officially older than that as of last week. As someone who has also experienced a lifetime of sexual frustration, I will turn 23 as a KHHV within the next couple of weeks and I think this is the most daunting birthday of my entire life...

See, for years there is somewhat of a milestone system in place and age is not exempt from that. For instance, when you turn 16 it's typically the age that is venerated as being seen as mature...foids have sweet sixteens, it's usually the first year you can drive legally, you are seen as ready to date "she can date when she's 16" etc.

17 is seen as the age where you are now a senior in high school and hitting all of these milestones like typically the last year of puberty, average age of losing your virginity as a guy, choosing colleges, can see R-rated movies and buy M-rated games, can join the military, etc.

At 18 you are now a legal adult and are granted many privileges you otherwise wouldn't be able to perform as a minor and the list only goes on as to what you are now capable of doing (moving out for the first time, going away to colleges and developing a sense of independence, can get a credit card and go into debt etc...)

19 depending on where you live is also the case with more opportunities expanding due to your legal age as well as you being a teenager for the last time, etc. This way the first age that I felt "old" and truly sentient of my own mortality. It was also the age that I recognized in myself as truly not being "normal" as I had been denying it for years but now my chronological age was proof.

20 is big as you are entering a new decade of your life and the feeling of adulthood really sets in..."You are now in your twenties and now longer a kid" I feel like this is the age that people stop referring to you as a boy and using the negligence of being a teenager as an excuse is now gone.

21 is infamous for being the archetypal age of drinking as well as preferred youth "Are you 21 hahaha", etc. (More legal opportunities open up as well)

22 is usually the year that you graduate college and get a full-time job with many moving away from home permanently and it is really their first time being independent in a sense as they stop having to rely on their parents for money...

The point is that you know exactly what I am saying. I'm just not articulating it well at the moment because I'm typing this in mental haze but for your entire life up until now, a full year feels much different from the last (well for normies at least). Night and day in some cases. Each year up until now, getting a year older feels meaningful with rapid physical, neurological, and personal goal-oriented milestones that normies seem to reach with ease. I have utterly failed at reaching all of these milestones and have been completely mentally stunted for years now...

23 feels like the year for me where it's almost like you are now on your own and life is just a heavy gray fog at this point...The years just keep racking up and it's very easy to get left behind now. This will be the last year that you can definitively say you are in your early twenties and I have nothing to show for it. No more celebrated milestones, the shield of youth seems to be completely gone, and you are expected to just know how to do most things. What milestone am I waiting for now? ohhh the human brain stops developing at 25, yeah what an awesome milestone to reach where your brain starts to degenerate yeah really looking forward to that! :feelsseriously:...Oh yeah some completely arbitrary milestone like getting married which is 30 for men in the U.S. yeah totally looking forward to that when I never ever fucking kissed a girl :feelskek:. It's also complete bullshit as a milestone means nothing if it can be reversed (divorce rate is over 50% now), while you can't reverse being able to purchase alcohol or losing your virginity for instance! :feelskek:

There's nothing left for me. If you managed to get to this point as an incel well it's going to be a lifetime of catching up and compensating if you didn't realize that already. I thought I would have killed myself by this age as a teenager and I feel like one of those soldiers who lost all of his buddies in war coming back home and being like "well...what now?"

(Lol just think of the infamous 4chan greentext talking about being a 23 year old freak if you failed these milestones)
 
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It is bad man. Are you incel ?
 
f you managed to get to this point as an incel well it's going to be a lifetime of catching up and compensating if you didn't realize that already. I
brother, i'm 28 :feelsseriously:
I don't think i'll leave my job anytime soon, as my social skills are so abysmal I might not get hired again.
 
Yeah, I got this feeling at 25 though. 25 is like the point of no return when people really start seeing you as not young anymore. 30 is like when life ends. You’re a mature adult now that’s supposed to be settling down, having kids, and focusing solely on career. No more excitement or fun experiences as you should have gotten all of that out of your system. But none of us have. We are broken human beings. I’m 26 and it’s crazy seeing people my age buying their own apartments and moving in with their gf. Some already married with kids. I still feel like I’m 18 :fuk:
 
If I am still incel at 25, I'll definitely rope.
 
My condolences, now you're an oldcel.
 
I just turned 18 and havnt experienced any milestones I feel hopeless as wel
 
At 25 it seems truly impossible, time is running and the fear of dying after living a wasted and lonely life devoid of pleasure without ever reaching a happy end, the Ideal, seems crushing, too awful to accept; seeking the ideal social life with a selective group of people with a girl in that group that is the ideal girl OR simply finding THE girl, two ideals that are impossible, altough the hope for the second remains; worse part is: You can be capable of that, you can have the "personality" to propel it all if you got the chance, but you dont, because where to go to meet someone like that? Streets? Internet? Trying does not work either, must people already have passed that route, the train has passed already and now you are left with the bottom with the hated and forgotten.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0eRhDs2wjQ
 
Yeah, I'm almost 20 and it feels like I'm starting to become old.
 
I'm 22, never dated anyone, only had sex with hookers, never went to college, still live with my parents, I take care of them, no pleasure in life, I'm only waiting their death so I can kill myself(in call of duty black ops)
 
In rhe end our destiny is in the hands of luck; the biggest human suffering: to know so much but to control so little
 
I'm 22, never dated anyone, only had sex with hookers, never went to college, still live with my parents, I take care of them, no pleasure in life, I'm only waiting their death so I can kill myself(in call of duty black ops)
it's over for blackopscels
 
Dn rd but I know that feel :feelsUgh::feelswhat:
 
 
I'm 22, never dated anyone, only had sex with hookers, never went to college, still live with my parents, I take care of them, no pleasure in life, I'm only waiting their death so I can kill myself(in call of duty black ops)
Escortcel mogs
 
Elliot rodger died just before he turned 22 years & 11 months old...well, I am officially older than that as of last week. As someo
This is a signal, its time :feelsdevil:
 

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