SuicideFuel The loneliness is killing me.

[nxdismycope]

moved out in the begining of the month and theres legit full days that i did not speak at all. not even a word.
the loneliness is so horrible. it was horrible with my family and now its even worse - apparently even talking with my annoying family couple of words a day was helpful to keep my sanity.
yesterday i just felt like crying i just felt so bad, i felt like crying will make me feel better so i legit tried to cry but just couldnt. it was so cringy.
today i also feel sick and its even worse. honestly i just want someone to touch me. to feel alive.
even a handshake would feel good.
thought about buying weed (didnt smoke for the last 3-4 months) but i dont have a plug in this city and it will take me awhile to find out.

i didnt think its possible to feel that bad.........

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

There have been times where ive spoken so little, that it felt weird when i actually did speak.

My parents are typical loud mouth southern europeans, but when they go away for holidays or something for a few weeks, i end up not saying a word for most of that time, I have to start saying words randomly after 2-3 days, because after not saying a word for 2-3 days it begins to feel weird to talk.

I can see myself going mute if i didnt speak at all for weeks at a time.

 

[truthpill]

moved out in the begining of the month and theres legit full days that i did not speak at all. not even a word.
the loneliness is so horrible. it was horrible with my family and now its even worse - apparently even talking with my annoying family couple of words a day was helpful to keep my sanity.
yesterday i just felt like crying i just felt so bad, i felt like crying will make me feel better so i legit tried to cry but just couldnt. it was so cringy.
today i also feel sick and its even worse. honestly i just want someone to touch me. to feel alive.
even a handshake would feel good.
thought about buying weed (didnt smoke for the last 3-4 months) but i dont have a plug in this city and it will take me awhile to find out.

i didnt think its possible to feel that bad.........

I'll probably be moving out soon, I hope its not too bad and I can find a job soon

 

[Weston404]

honestly i just want someone to touch me.

Would Jew?

 

[JestER]

You'll get used to it, you're gonna have to eventually

 

[Pinkett Mouse]

The title makes me think of Whoreney Spears.

 

[happiless]

 

[FukFeminism]

Did you move because of school op? I know what it’s like. I lived alone in an apartment at Uni for a year while all around me life was taking place. I was merely a spectator. It hurts

 

[Edmund_Kemper]

Britney Spears

 

[Emba]

You need a sign!

Hit me baby one more time...


Rly tho.

Try podcasts! Or ebooks! Or even talk radio