Zesto
Chair of the Beautification Committee
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Now that the days are shorter and the night draws ever nearer I feel that fear I've felt before.
I don't know what I'm so afraid of but I always fight sleeping. I wanted to go bed early tonight so I can go to the gym tomorrow before class but as the time to sleep draws nearer I just get more and more scared.
Because when I'm laying in bed that's when the reality of my situation occurs to me. Without being drowned out in anime, music, and online forums is when I am at my most alone so I try to avoid it as long as possible to the detriment of my health.
The only comfort I have is my dakimakura.
I wish I could see sleep as some sort of respite, as an escape, so that it could be my friend instead.
But I fear it. I fear it as a reminder of all the lonely nights before and a potential harbinger of more to come.
The only hope there can be for me is imagining my mommygf telling me I have to go to bed early and little boys like me shouldn't stay up so late and I need my sleep.
and taking the new nootropics I bought
I don't know what I'm so afraid of but I always fight sleeping. I wanted to go bed early tonight so I can go to the gym tomorrow before class but as the time to sleep draws nearer I just get more and more scared.
Because when I'm laying in bed that's when the reality of my situation occurs to me. Without being drowned out in anime, music, and online forums is when I am at my most alone so I try to avoid it as long as possible to the detriment of my health.
The only comfort I have is my dakimakura.
I wish I could see sleep as some sort of respite, as an escape, so that it could be my friend instead.
But I fear it. I fear it as a reminder of all the lonely nights before and a potential harbinger of more to come.
The only hope there can be for me is imagining my mommygf telling me I have to go to bed early and little boys like me shouldn't stay up so late and I need my sleep.
and taking the new nootropics I bought