Wiz32BlackJiggaboo
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I'm sure I wasn't his best friend, but I connect with so few people that I really think he was my best. I wish I wasn't so ashamed of myself and had tried to stay in contact with him.
I always thought it would be cool if we had been roommates or something. I think he would've been a positive influence on my athleticism, and I was taller and maybe could've helped him move heavy boxes or some shit so he could've focused on acrobatics.
He even visited my province and I never fucking knew... I might've MET him...
He was a juggler, an acrobat, a contortionist, a tricker, an actor, a philosopher, a video game designer, a comic illustrator... he was creative in so many ways that I don't know if I ever could've been.
I guess because I knew him so early, I feel close to a part of him that people who knew him later in life might not have been close to. Like I knew the old him, parts of the inner him he might not have projected in his day-to-day interactions except those closest to him. It's hard to know.
I don't really know if he was celibate or not. I do know that (possibly for financial reasons?) he did gay porn and when I talked to him after finding out I don't think I ever brought it up because it was too awkward a subject to broach. He only ever talked about liking cute younger girls with me, so it seems like he did that because it was one of the few ways to make money easily from the athleticism he built. But I was never really sure.
It seemed like there were girls interested him but I don't know how far that got. Like if they were toying because he was cute but maybe too short? Even if he had hooked up it's hard to think they would've really bonded romantically, accepted the true him, which I think few knew about.
It's hard to say. I hope among the athletic stripper/gymast women I saw him socialize with in his social media vids that he did find a girl who understood and accepted him. I'm guessing if he did it didn't last, which saddens me, but I hope he at least had some ephemeral moments of fulfillment and ascension.
He certainly was higher-effort and lower-inhib than I ever was. He was an inspiration in human achievement. He was my hero. He was a True Hero.
I always thought it would be cool if we had been roommates or something. I think he would've been a positive influence on my athleticism, and I was taller and maybe could've helped him move heavy boxes or some shit so he could've focused on acrobatics.
He even visited my province and I never fucking knew... I might've MET him...
He was a juggler, an acrobat, a contortionist, a tricker, an actor, a philosopher, a video game designer, a comic illustrator... he was creative in so many ways that I don't know if I ever could've been.
I guess because I knew him so early, I feel close to a part of him that people who knew him later in life might not have been close to. Like I knew the old him, parts of the inner him he might not have projected in his day-to-day interactions except those closest to him. It's hard to know.
I don't really know if he was celibate or not. I do know that (possibly for financial reasons?) he did gay porn and when I talked to him after finding out I don't think I ever brought it up because it was too awkward a subject to broach. He only ever talked about liking cute younger girls with me, so it seems like he did that because it was one of the few ways to make money easily from the athleticism he built. But I was never really sure.
It seemed like there were girls interested him but I don't know how far that got. Like if they were toying because he was cute but maybe too short? Even if he had hooked up it's hard to think they would've really bonded romantically, accepted the true him, which I think few knew about.
It's hard to say. I hope among the athletic stripper/gymast women I saw him socialize with in his social media vids that he did find a girl who understood and accepted him. I'm guessing if he did it didn't last, which saddens me, but I hope he at least had some ephemeral moments of fulfillment and ascension.
He certainly was higher-effort and lower-inhib than I ever was. He was an inspiration in human achievement. He was my hero. He was a True Hero.
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