Longbowman
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I was 15 years old. It was a family meeting and my older cousin brought a couple of friends over for dinner, and one of them had a daughter. She smiled at me as soon as she saw me. We sat down and talked for a while. She was comfortable around me. We were having a good conversation. I was so nervous, I couldn't even know what to say.
I was a nerd at the time (a lifestyle I immensely regret) and all I could do was ask her if she enjoyed reading books or whatever. She got uncomfortable pretty quick and ended up going home after her parents decided to leave the meeting. I had the real chance to ascend that day. Not sex, no. But kissing her. She was interested in me. She sat down by my side.
And what did I do? Talked about books, grades, and school like a sucker. Talk about a loser. I deserve this hell I'm going through. I didn't have acne back then, I could've ascended.
Fuck. I hate myself.
I was a nerd at the time (a lifestyle I immensely regret) and all I could do was ask her if she enjoyed reading books or whatever. She got uncomfortable pretty quick and ended up going home after her parents decided to leave the meeting. I had the real chance to ascend that day. Not sex, no. But kissing her. She was interested in me. She sat down by my side.
And what did I do? Talked about books, grades, and school like a sucker. Talk about a loser. I deserve this hell I'm going through. I didn't have acne back then, I could've ascended.
Fuck. I hate myself.