Today when I woke up and I remembered that one day my parents will be gone. They still have some 30-40 years ahead of them, but still the reminder that one day I will completely be alone is quite brutal.
I think about that every few months or so, i just know the time is ticking before i'm completely alone and will be homeless
They are the only people I talk to IRL, bar like saying "good day" to the cashier at the store.
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Brutal i'm aware of that and i'm aware that will have no inheritance too. i'll try getting my tucking license someday i've considered selling all my things to pay for the trucking license but i also think that too extreme.
i don't talk to mine too much since i still have a troubled pass with them but it provides some sense of not being completely alone day to day. i rarely go outside or to the store so i don't have much interactions with anyone besides online
I am currently not in Communion with my parents but I hope to fix that soon.
I think about it time to time too. Especially my mom, and I get so sad thinking about it.
The thing that has always scared me most is Time. It flows, It just never stops. It feels like grains of sand sifting through your fingers whenever you try to grab them. There is an infinity before my 70 years, an infinity after it. And yet these 70 years will pass. Are passing. And I have done nothing, I will do nothing. My parents and my life is getting wasted. Man, Why is it like this for us 
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