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twascilk99
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Yes. It destroyed me. I was always blackpilled, I'm no bluepilled retard, I wish I was, at least it would take away some of the pain.
Nothing. Not couples holding hands in public, not teachers drooling to chad classmates, not stories, not ANY of the threads on this forum has given me this many ruthless heart piercing suicidefuel shots as talking to a real life 18 year old random EU girl did.
Obviously on my stacyfish.
I blame myself for allowing my alter ego consciousness to penetrate my real mind so deeply.
Every single day of hers is something I deeply need, something I want, but the moment it turns to something about friendship, relationships, love, or sex..
I would give everything. I would erase 20 years of my past experiences for a day in her life.
Some of her single sentence texts like when the girl she barely even knew and just met came over to her house and they regularly meet just to fuck casually.. all this is just too much.
Cold hearted brutal shot to the heart, and its not even close.
My entire body is shaking, my eyes are all red, I want to cry out loud but I can't do it anymore. My heart feels like stone in my chest.
It's an endless life of suffering. Nothing will change. I could turn 7/10 today, I swear I could wake up a 7/10 looking guy tomorrow, and I wouldn't even come close to the life this random girl has.
People confessing love to her.
People wanting to have sex with any at any moment.
Hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of messages in her inbox.
Always people ready to go out with her.
Why do I even post this thread. I guess the pain is too much and its the only place in the world that allows me to speak..
The only place I belong.
What did I do to deserve this. Why is this happening to me. Every day is worse. What's wrong with this world. What's wrong with this evil world.
Nothing. Not couples holding hands in public, not teachers drooling to chad classmates, not stories, not ANY of the threads on this forum has given me this many ruthless heart piercing suicidefuel shots as talking to a real life 18 year old random EU girl did.
Obviously on my stacyfish.
I blame myself for allowing my alter ego consciousness to penetrate my real mind so deeply.
Every single day of hers is something I deeply need, something I want, but the moment it turns to something about friendship, relationships, love, or sex..
I would give everything. I would erase 20 years of my past experiences for a day in her life.
Some of her single sentence texts like when the girl she barely even knew and just met came over to her house and they regularly meet just to fuck casually.. all this is just too much.
Cold hearted brutal shot to the heart, and its not even close.
My entire body is shaking, my eyes are all red, I want to cry out loud but I can't do it anymore. My heart feels like stone in my chest.
It's an endless life of suffering. Nothing will change. I could turn 7/10 today, I swear I could wake up a 7/10 looking guy tomorrow, and I wouldn't even come close to the life this random girl has.
People confessing love to her.
People wanting to have sex with any at any moment.
Hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of messages in her inbox.
Always people ready to go out with her.
Why do I even post this thread. I guess the pain is too much and its the only place in the world that allows me to speak..
The only place I belong.
What did I do to deserve this. Why is this happening to me. Every day is worse. What's wrong with this world. What's wrong with this evil world.