SuicideFuel Stories from the Closed Psychiatric Facility, Part: 1

[Caesercel]

I meant this retard @mogger

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[Borderline-Cel]

Based OP

Thank you brocel.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

As you guys know, yesterday I joined and became incredibly famous here. So, I'm starting a series akin to a digital diary. I will explain how a day goes by in the life of a borderline incel in a closed psychiatric facility. Yesterday's events:

So, there are strict rules you have to follow. At around 6:30 an employee enters the room and says "good morning" with a kind voice. Translation: Time to get up, you can not sleep anymore. Alternate translation: If you do not get that ass up until breakfast and join breakfast, I'm snitching you on the doctor, who will punish you for it as they see fit.

After breakfast, the old, demented types started shouting all over the place, and us the normal looking mentals do their own things. I have my own "secret" place at the back of the garden under some sort of stairs. I used to break the drinking glasses and cut myselc with the piece of glass there. I also used to burn myself with a cigarette every day. I was so careless and one of the foid workers saw my wounds and my secret place was revealed. They punished me by taking my right to go outside and also tied me.to bed.for a while. They also took my cell phone. After my punishment ismover, I joined this forum and became famous.

Also, I waa the reason that every single glass was replaced by a plastic glass and a camera was installed under the stairs at my secret place.

To be continued.

You have very nice place, I have been to multiple Closed Psychiatric Facilities and nowhere I could access the Internet. I did not get outdoors for months even a single time despite asking (with a nurse of course guarding that i don't escape). Only allowed to use a common landline phone with strict time limits and the nurses listening to every conversation. You have very nice place. Worst things for me was that I was drugged against my will with antipshychotics that made me not sleep properlu, stupid and slow, not being able to sit still and not move a foot back and forth. antipshychotics shink brains. also, i was put there against my will, but still received big hospital bills and lost my savings paying for them. prison would have been free. prison is much, much better. there they will not force you to take drugs and you are guaranteed 1 hour outside every day.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

You have very nice place, I have been to multiple Closed Psychiatric Facilities and nowhere I could access the Internet. I did not get outdoors for months even a single time despite asking (with a nurse of course guarding that i don't escape). Only allowed to use a common landline phone with strict time limits and the nurses listening to every conversation. You have very nice place. Worst things for me was that I was drugged against my will with antipshychotics that made me not sleep properlu, stupid and slow, not being able to sit still and not move a foot back and forth. antipshychotics shink brains. also, i was put there against my will, but still received big hospital bills and lost my savings paying for them. prison would have been free. prison is much, much better. there they will not force you to take drugs and you are guaranteed 1 hour outside every day.

Thanks for sharing, brocel. That's pretty brutal. I'm sorry for you.

I have actually met a former gang member here who has been in prison. He said the same thing. He said that the prison conditions were much better than the closed psychiatric facility, and that he wished he was in prison instead of here.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Thanks for sharing, brocel. That's pretty brutal. I'm sorry for you.

I have actually met a former gang member here who has been in prison. He said the same thing. He said that the prison conditions were much better than the closed psychiatric facility, and that he wished he was in prison instead of here.

forgot to say the most important bit: risperidone made me feel absolute awful at high dose (way too high). nothing felt anything. anhedonia. inability to feel pleasure. after quitting (too quickly, but i had no say in it) i could not sleep for months, i still don't know how i did not die from not sleeping. i got permanent brain damage and lower IQ from it certainly. also from risperidone: total inability to get an erection. if i managed to ejaculate, it was when i achieved 5% erection with physical stimulus only (visual did nothing) and the ejaculation was instant the second when I gained that 5% erection. I have had premature ejaculation my whole life and antipsychotics make it worse. also, retrograde ejaculation. just a couple ejaculations during the months i was on it involuntary because i tested the ability. no libido. I was never psychotic, I needed and need more dopamine, not less. they mistook autism for psychosis.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

forgot to say the most important bit: risperidone made me feel absolute awful at high dose (way too high). nothing felt anything. anhedonia. inability to feel pleasure. after quitting (too quickly, but i had no say in it) i could not sleep for months, i still don't know how i did not die from not sleeping. i got permanent brain damage and lower IQ from it certainly. also from risperidone: total inability to get an erection. if i managed to ejaculate, it was when i achieved 5% erection with physical stimulus only (visual did nothing) and the ejaculation was instant the second when I gained that 5% erection. I have had premature ejaculation my whole life and antipsychotics make it worse. also, retrograde ejaculation. just a couple ejaculations during the months i was on it involuntary because i tested the ability. no libido. I was never psychotic, I needed and need more dopamine, not less. they mistook autism for psychosis.

That's atrocious. They misdiagnosed you, have given you a false medication that had made your situation worse and did not even give you the choice to take it or not? I have heard from a patient here that had schizophrenia that he was better before, but the medications has given him schizophrenia, and especially psychosis and hallucinations. I did not take him seriously, and just thought that he was talking bonkers stuff. But after reading what you said, I felt a chill down my spine.

 

[Raidriar3015]

forgot to say the most important bit: risperidone made me feel absolute awful at high dose (way too high). nothing felt anything. anhedonia. inability to feel pleasure. after quitting (too quickly, but i had no say in it) i could not sleep for months, i still don't know how i did not die from not sleeping. i got permanent brain damage and lower IQ from it certainly. also from risperidone: total inability to get an erection. if i managed to ejaculate, it was when i achieved 5% erection with physical stimulus only (visual did nothing) and the ejaculation was instant the second when I gained that 5% erection. I have had premature ejaculation my whole life and antipsychotics make it worse. also, retrograde ejaculation. just a couple ejaculations during the months i was on it involuntary because i tested the ability. no libido. I was never psychotic, I needed and need more dopamine, not less. they mistook autism for psychosis.

That's fucked up. I'm sorry. Every week I find more reason not to trust medical professionals.

 

[IncelKing]

forgot to say the most important bit: risperidone made me feel absolute awful at high dose (way too high). nothing felt anything. anhedonia. inability to feel pleasure. after quitting (too quickly, but i had no say in it) i could not sleep for months, i still don't know how i did not die from not sleeping. i got permanent brain damage and lower IQ from it certainly. also from risperidone: total inability to get an erection. if i managed to ejaculate, it was when i achieved 5% erection with physical stimulus only (visual did nothing) and the ejaculation was instant the second when I gained that 5% erection. I have had premature ejaculation my whole life and antipsychotics make it worse. also, retrograde ejaculation. just a couple ejaculations during the months i was on it involuntary because i tested the ability. no libido. I was never psychotic, I needed and need more dopamine, not less. they mistook autism for psychosis.

I was on a low dose of risperidone and seroquel evERy night for sevERal years….

 

[der_komische]

 

[Borderline-Cel]

I was on a low dose of risperidone and seroquel evERy night for sevERal years….

Damn... Must have sucked. I have never taken it myself but from what was explained above by the other person that doesn't sound like a good experience.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

They misdiagnosed you, have given you a false medication that had made your situation worse and did not even give you the choice to take it or not?

Yes. not false medication, did you mean the word 'wrong' (medication)?

I have never ever had any psychosis and hallucinations. and the meds did not cause them either.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I was on a low dose of risperidone

1 mg wasn't bad yet. But at 3 mg+ every second was hell and suffering. But I was upped like one week on 1, one week on 2mg, one week on 3mg... if i remember correctly. in the past i was on 1 mg a long time along with ssri. that was good actually. it was totally different when i was (forced) to be only on risperidone and after going beyond 1mg