SuicideFuel Stories from the Closed Psychiatric Facility, Part: 1

[Borderline-Cel]

As you guys know, yesterday I joined and became incredibly famous here. So, I'm starting a series akin to a digital diary. I will explain how a day goes by in the life of a borderline incel in a closed psychiatric facility. Yesterday's events:

So, there are strict rules you have to follow. At around 6:30 an employee enters the room and says "good morning" with a kind voice. Translation: Time to get up, you can not sleep anymore. Alternate translation: If you do not get that ass up until breakfast and join breakfast, I'm snitching you on the doctor, who will punish you for it as they see fit.

After breakfast, the old, demented types started shouting all over the place, and us the normal looking mentals do their own things. I have my own "secret" place at the back of the garden under some sort of stairs. I used to break the drinking glasses and cut myselc with the piece of glass there. I also used to burn myself with a cigarette every day. I was so careless and one of the foid workers saw my wounds and my secret place was revealed. They punished me by taking my right to go outside and also tied me.to bed.for a while. They also took my cell phone. After my punishment ismover, I joined this forum and became famous.

Also, I waa the reason that every single glass was replaced by a plastic glass and a camera was installed under the stairs at my secret place.

To be continued.

 

[PersonalityChimp]

 

[Borderline-Cel]

Context: It's a wine called African Rock. I censored R

 

[PersonalityChimp]

Context: It's a wine called African Rock. I censored R

I see

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Pausing is pointless, for her.

I'll rest now.

 

[Raidriar3015]

Your situation sounds very sad. I hope you get better. Don't cut or burn yourself.

 

[Rotter]

 

[Borderline-Cel]

Your situation sounds very sad. I hope you get better. Don't cut or burn yourself.

Thanks for the only relevant and meaningful reply.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

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[Copexodius Maximus]

As you guys know, yesterday I joined and became incredibly famous here. So, I'm starting a series akin to a digital diary. I will explain how a day goes by in the life of a borderline incel in a closed psychiatric facility. Yesterday's events:

So, there are strict rules you have to follow. At around 6:30 an employee enters the room and says "good morning" with a kind voice. Translation: Time to get up, you can not sleep anymore. Alternate translation: If you do not get that ass up until breakfast and join breakfast, I'm snitching you on the doctor, who will punish you for it as they see fit.

After breakfast, the old, demented types started shouting all over the place, and us the normal looking mentals do their own things. I have my own "secret" place at the back of the garden under some sort of stairs. I used to break the drinking glasses and cut myselc with the piece of glass there. I also used to burn myself with a cigarette every day. I was so careless and one of the foid workers saw my wounds and my secret place was revealed. They punished me by taking my right to go outside and also tied me.to bed.for a while. They also took my cell phone. After my punishment ismover, I joined this forum and became famous.

Also, I waa the reason that every single glass was replaced by a plastic glass and a camera was installed under the stairs at my secret place.

To be continued.

Why are you in the psych ward brocel?

 

[Rotter]

Thanks for the only relevant and meaningful reply.

You might find it hard to get good responses as a grey, everyone will expect you to schizopost

 

[Mecoja]

Are there any younger foids in there?

 

[Raidriar3015]

Thanks for the only relevant and meaningful reply.

No problem. I look forward to more updates brocel; hopefully I don't miss them.

 

[TBIcel]

How long are you stuck in there? Can't you somewhat hide your mental illnesses and feign remission to get out sooner?

 

[Borderline-Cel]

Are there any younger foids in there?

Yes. There is a very young and a sweet one for whom I developed some sorta crush.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

No problem. I look forward to more updates brocel; hopefully I don't miss them.

Thanks brocel. I will keep updating with upcoming parts of my dairy entries as events develop. Tune in!

 

[Mecoja]

Yes. There is a very young and a sweet one for whom I developed some sorta crush.

Maybe you could ascend with her since you're locked together and i presume most people there are very old.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

Maybe you could ascend with her since you're locked together and i presume most people there are very old.

No fucking way brocel. I mean yes, it's true, we're the only young people here, but you have no idea how utterly skilless and useless when it comes to social interactions. Also, it is worth noting how bold my suicide attempt+borderline made me. When I put something in my head, I do it immediately. And I mean ANYTHING. I wl do it as soon as I think, which is one of the symptoms of Borderline. Being cowardly until now never helped me either. So, I just went to her, and I said: "I'm sorry to bother you, but may I tell you something"?
Her: Yes, what is it?
Me: I think I am in love with you
Her (with a surprised face): But you barely know me. How can you be in love?
Me: For me, the beauty is objective, and I think you're beautiful, so, I'm in love with you.
Her (with a smile and playing with her hair): Okay, I guess I understand. Thanks.

And then I felt so stupid and left but she was smiling. Probably because of the ego boost. Nothing to do with me.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

How long are you stuck in there? Can't you somewhat hide your mental illnesses and feign remission to get out sooner?

The time is for now unknown. It can be a few days if I behave, it can be months if I don't. Even if I'm done here, I will still be transferred to an open psychiatric facility for the treatment of my borderline. Because here is no therapy. Just crisis intervention for suicidality and self-harm. Also, you can not feign anything. Even the nornal employees are trained excellently and realize everything immediately.

 

[TBIcel]

The time is for now unknown. It can be a few days if I behave, it can be months if I don't. Even if I'm done here, I will still be transferred to an open psychiatric facility for the treatment of my borderline. Because here is no therapy. Just crisis intervention for suicidality and self-harm. Also, you can not feign anything. Even the nornal employees are trained excellently and realize everything immediately.

I call bs as you are dealing likely with a bunch of fat stupid lazy whores on top of that they are not psychic so if you kept more quiet and didn't do dumb shit like burn yourself that makes it obvious you'd be easily able to pull it off. Trust me even after I had a tbi and was in one shortly I feigned the psychiatric symptoms getting better to get out of the spot. To say nothing of the fact they tend to be extremely lazy individuals who hate their jobs and you being a low value male they might at times wish to inflict harm but more often than not they want you to be out of sight.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

I call bs as you are dealing likely with a bunch of fat stupid lazy whores on top of that they are not psychic so if you kept more quiet and didn't do dumb shit like burn yourself that makes it obvious you'd be easily able to pull it off. Trust me even after I had a tbi and was in one shortly I feigned the psychiatric symptoms getting better to get out of the spot. To say nothing of the fact they tend to be extremely lazy individuals who hate their jobs and you being a low value male they might at times wish to inflict harm but more often than not they want you to be out of sight.

Thanks for the tips brocel. I'll keep them in mind.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

You might find it hard to get good responses as a grey, everyone will expect you to schizopost

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[Borderline-Cel]

Who are you?

Check my first thread and what was written on my profile

 

[future&$]

Your situation sounds very sad. I hope you get better. Don't cut or burn yourself.

 

[Simulacrasimulation]

As you guys know, yesterday I joined and became incredibly famous here. So, I'm starting a series akin to a digital diary. I will explain how a day goes by in the life of a borderline incel in a closed psychiatric facility. Yesterday's events:

So, there are strict rules you have to follow. At around 6:30 an employee enters the room and says "good morning" with a kind voice. Translation: Time to get up, you can not sleep anymore. Alternate translation: If you do not get that ass up until breakfast and join breakfast, I'm snitching you on the doctor, who will punish you for it as they see fit.

After breakfast, the old, demented types started shouting all over the place, and us the normal looking mentals do their own things. I have my own "secret" place at the back of the garden under some sort of stairs. I used to break the drinking glasses and cut myselc with the piece of glass there. I also used to burn myself with a cigarette every day. I was so careless and one of the foid workers saw my wounds and my secret place was revealed. They punished me by taking my right to go outside and also tied me.to bed.for a while. They also took my cell phone. After my punishment ismover, I joined this forum and became famous.

Also, I waa the reason that every single glass was replaced by a plastic glass and a camera was installed under the stairs at my secret place.

To be continued.

TLDR narcissism to be continued

"I joined this forum and became famous."

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

TLDR narcissism to be continued

...

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

No.

 

[Simulacrasimulation]

No.

i thought you were agreeing with me for once

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

i thought you were agreeing with me for once

I am.

I'm Blasian.

 

[ClinicallyDeformed]

This forum is pricelesss i swear.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

TLDR narcissism to be continued

Don't read it then you dumbfuck.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

My cell phone was confiscated boyos, because a lot of shit has happened. I am currently in the process of preparing the draft of the part 2, now that I have my cell phone back. It'll be a banger.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

This forum is pricelesss i swear.

Thanks' I'm happy to contribute.

 

[Puppeter]

@Caesercel moggels alt

 

[Borderline-Cel]

@Caesercel moggels alt

Jealous will throw shade. Cry.

 

[Caesercel]

@Caesercel moggels alt

Really?

 

[Puppeter]

Jealous will throw shade. Cry.

Really so instead of questioning who that guy is since ur "new" you defend instantly what an odd thing to do @Caesercel his writing is similar

 

[Caesercel]

Really so instead of questioning who that guy is since ur "new" you defend instantly what an odd thing to do @Caesercel his writing is similar

Moggels was a normie. I wouldn't expect him to be in a mental ward.

 

[Borderline-Cel]

@Caesercel moggels alt

Moggels was a normie. I wouldn't expect him to be in a mental ward.

Cry more.

 

[Puppeter]

Cry more.

Ur crying faggot

 

[Borderline-Cel]

Ur crying faggot

Rent free

 

[Puppeter]

Rent free

You since you seem to be bothered moggels faggot

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Lovely similarities. I spent the week of my 22th birthday in a psych ward.



I met a 5'9 White male in the psych ward named "Derek G". He was blonde and pale yet also a very devout Christian; he prayed for me once and we greeted each-other daily. Based on my observations, he was homeless and unsure of his living arrangements post-hospitalization.

I also met an elderly White male named "Michael". He told me about his personal life(Sister and her husband, his sports interests) and asked me if I was hungry because of my slim appearance("Are you hungry? You look thin").

Those events greatly offset the unkindness I received from a nurse.

Derek G played his radio regularly in the suicide ward. He was in the room across from mine.

I was unable to gaze upon my White nurses without feeling immense discomfort.

Patients kept standing outside my door each night since I was sexualizing holes in my sleep.

"Good pussy"

Derek, a blonde White Christian, opened my room and checked on me. After that, I had to greet him myself since he was reluctant to speak to me.

As in the commune, I'd wake up without my hospital clothes, naked. This was similar to how I had to sleep in my apartment living room since my neighbors started laughing at my sleep-talking each night(Before doing "Other" things).

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Fair enough but I do at least have some good memories of socialising, which seem a long time ago now.

ER's age

I'll be 21 soon

Mentally and physically. Vile personality. The video was meant to condescend over a patient in a psych ward(Yes, she works in a psychiatric hospital).

Unsurprisingly, she spent years receiving luxurious "treatment" in that very hospital for "suicidal thinking" and eating disorders. This includes hospitalization and group therapy programs(where she met the patient).

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(Taken in the bathroom of the hospital)

This "queen" derives "self-love" from denigrating a mentally-ill man who rejected her(years ago) for being manipulative(after years of blind devotion). It gave her(and her Chad friends) pleasure to think of him suffering in a psych ward. Again, vile.

Objectively, this is as much "ragefuel" as it was "suifuel". However, foids with extreme privilege and social praise feed off of incel anger. Better instead to criticize the gynocentric mental health system.

Yes, several times. I've been laughed at by groups of women for being short and having severe social anxiety. I've been called "ugly" by taller, assertive men.

Yes. A pathetic, worthless whore who has had years of validation from beta orbiters. She once laughed at me while I was in the ward for suicidal patients and caused me to suffer needless bullying in group therapy.

Human filth.

class “we’re in class to learn, not to make friends and date”

Indeed it is. Ironically, my disability was missed by group therapists because of my ethnicity. Shannon Rose, however, received special treatment for being a pretty petite White lass.

Group therapy. A certain mentally-ill morena would occasionally ask me if I was "okay". I had stuttering/anxiety issues and she clearly viewed me as "less" than her, but she was kind and sympathetic.

"Hello Intellau"(Sometimes)

"Intellau, did the group arguing today make you anxious?"

"Intellau, shouldn't you wear your jacket?"(The group was walking outside on a cold March day)

"Intellau, let me help you" (I have motor problems and couldn't balance my body properly to complete a group activity)

Near the end of my stint, I had stopped coming to group therapy for a few days due to appointments/anxiety. When I returned, I (reluctantly) participated by playing a game with the group. Most of them ignored me and one person actually spoke over me without regard for my turn to speak, but the morena was much kinder to me; she started "fake laughing" at my game answers to make me feel more comfortable and said "Bye Intellau" before I left. That was on her last day of group therapy.

I very much wanted to chat with that woman and offer advice for her problems, but I was unable to; I was too anxious and prone to stuttering to befriend her during group therapy. We seemed to have very similar viewpoints and maturity levels

Outside of that, nothing at all. Meeting the morena helped me realize how superficial Shannon Rose Bosanac truly was; As S.R.B flirted with tall Chads in her group(Rule violation), the depressed morena sat quickly and respectfully for months.

It's impossible.

Just give up.

You'll never find a girlfriend.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Femoids are massive hypocrites. Shannon Rose Bosanac, my former "oneitis", laughs at me because of my autistic traits and severe anxiety.

Note that Shannon was in group therapy for anxiety/depression. This is the video she created to laugh at my hospitalization(She's been hospitalized three times).

I dont listen to what a cum dumpster has too say

In 2016, I was an anxious 17-18 y/o who could barely leave his room to attend group therapy. I had crippling social anxiety and stuttering issues that made it difficult to function among other people. I kept my head down for four hours and had to close my eyes to speak normally.

In 2016, "anxious" and "depressed" Shannon Rose Bosanac had 10+ orbiters and 4+ boyfriends lined up to support her at any given time. She was placed in the "Afternoon Group" to support her complex mental health history(She needed the extra support of her morning teachers).

Here we see poor Shannon struggling to function among NTs:

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What the fuck is she doing with her hands why why does her face look like that?

Yes. Shannon Rose Bosanac requested to be switched into another group after I mistakenly "looked" at her. This occurred during the "process group" time when each person had a turn to speak.

Note that I was more or less "asexual" at that age.

 

[Simulacrasimulation]

Don't read it then you dumbfuck.

while being a dumb fuck yourself

 

[Cnidoblastos]

Based OP

 

[Puppeter]

Moggels was a normie. I wouldn't expect him to be in a mental ward.

I meant this retard @mogger