Venting Starving makes me less anxious in public and the feeling of being judged

[FentAddict420]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

 

[Animecel2D]

Try sleep deprivation

you won’t give a single fuck about anything when you’ve gone without sleep for long enough

 

[Soystein]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

I have the same problem, it got worse the uglier I got.

 

[The Death Devil]

I actually do wonder why we feel like that. When I used to be filled with despair, I tended to starve myself in response to the dread I experienced—I suppose I saw it as a way of separating myself from humanity further and a kind of 'punishment' for not being a normal person. I would be disgusted by the very idea of eating because that means that I was trying to continue to sustain myself and live when I, at the time, thought that I had no right to. Eventually I'd give up and eat something, anyway, but I really liked the feeling that I got from it—although I couldn't quite say what it was like...

 

[endoftheskies]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

the feeling of always being dead inside. it sometimes feels like you are just a skinsuit.

 

[ogercel]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

Love you too brocel
tbh i think you have social anxiety
and youre probably not fat its just in your head

I had the same issues trust me no one in public cares

 

[ectomorphuser]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

my twin. Not cringe very relatable

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

Nice avi. I recognize the film it's from. Very relatable character. Also not cringe at all, boyo. Comes with the territory.

 

[iJustWantToWent]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

Very relatable, when you are starving it's like your mind goes into a prime directive and fear of social situations becomes not so important. I remember one time when i was fasting and forgot my phone at home, i asked a stranger what date it was. Which i would never have done if i wasn't in that fasted state.

 

[fokusin]

Always at public I have the constant feeling of being judged, I feel like a creep everywhere i go, work or simply existing outside. But when i go out and starve myself i feel a little better how less bloated and more skinny i feel, plus the addition of cigs make it easier to suppress my hunger.
It doesn't only imply to the public, i really feel anxious bout everything thing i participate even in this forum. I really feel so disgusted even writing this or in any social media space, i have the fear of being outlasted like in my life. I don't even feel human, i simply exist with no purpose to anything, i just rot in front of my pc and go to work and that's it.

i hope this isn't cringe what i wrote, all love

For me I feel disgusting cause I am skinny