It's Over Starting to become a "vol"cel

[Lebensmüder]

I am neither asexual nor a faggot. I find women sexually arousing, I like their bodies (e.g. boobs, hair, face, legs) and also have no physiological problem (e.g. I have the desire for sexual stimulation and the abillity to achieve it). But I don't find their genitals appealing or like the depiction of a sex act in pornography, I probably have partialism (e.g. paraphilia where the focus lies in other body parts than the reproductive organs). But I also find alternative sex acts like oral sex/anal sex disgusting, I have no desire to a fuck a hole where feces come out or even come into oral contact with those openings, I also think that I would find the smell and the microbiome there disgusting.

I would also never visit a whore. For the following reasons: a) I won't pay for things that other males get for free as a matter of course, b) I don't think that I could even perform, I would only pay money for someone who would laugh behind my back afterwards, I am not paying money only to be transformed into the laughing stock of the nation. I have no desire to learn anything about sex, because I find the act as a whole completely disgusting and women will also only feel aroused when they are pounded by a chad, I also have no idea how I would start with that topic or what I would do if I found myself suddenly in a situation where sex was available.

If a naked woman suddenly materialized out of nowhere, I would tell her to get lost. Normies tell you that you can learn about sex, but the truth is that a normal man has a biological compass that allows him to navigate correctly - a normal man instinctively knows what sex is or at least has a vague concept of it, he would know what to do, not knowing what to do is a sign of being completely sick in the brain. It's impossible to learn this, it's biologically ingrained, others were born with it. Even most incels would instinctively know what to do when there is a unicorn out there who would be willing to fuck them.

Sometimes I still feel emotions like loneliness/sadness, but otherwise there is nothing there anymore. Bullying has unironically effectively neutered me, sometimes I still strive for physical contact like a hug, but that is soon replaced by disgust. I am probably the only one who feels like this and I don't even know what's wrong with me, I really want to know it.

 

[Jungle]

maybe youre losing testosterone

 

[Lebensmüder]

maybe youre losing testosterone

No idea. I have no troubles with masturbation and I never had any desire for watching sexual acts. I have a pretty strong sex drive. But could very well be true.

 

[Solo Disident]

I would also never visit a whore. For the following reasons: a) I won't pay for things that other males get for free as a matter of course, b) I don't think that I could even perform, I would only pay money for someone who would laugh behind my back afterwards, I am not paying money only to be transformed into the laughing stock of the nation. I have no desire to learn anything about sex, because I find the act as a whole completely disgusting and women will also only feel aroused when they are pounded by a chad, I also have no idea how I would start with that topic or what I would do if I found myself suddenly in a situation where sex was available.

If a naked woman suddenly materialized out of nowhere, I would tell her to get lost. Normies tell you that you can learn about sex, but the truth is that a normal man has a biological compass that allows him to navigate correctly - a normal man instinctively knows what sex is or at least has a vague concept of it, he would know what to do, not knowing what to do is a sign of being completely sick in the brain. It's impossible to learn this, it's biologically ingrained, others were born with it. Even most incels would instinctively know what to do when there is a unicorn out there who would be willing to fuck them.

Sometimes I still feel emotions like loneliness/sadness, but otherwise there is nothing there anymore. Bullying has unironically effectively neutered me, sometimes I still strive for physical contact like a hug, but that is soon replaced by disgust. I am probably the only one who feels like this and I don't even know what's wrong with me, I really want to know it.

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

 

[Snowstormhigh]

When I saw a prostitute I wasn't even able to cum

 

[Deleted member 20139]

IM GONNA FUCKING CUM IN THEM YOU LITTLE BITCH

 

[Deleted member 30187]

not knowing what to do is a sign of being completely sick in the brain

Bullying has unironically effectively neutered me

strive for physical contact like a hug, but that is soon replaced by disgust

Disgust is one of the strongest emotions i feel, besides fear, shame. A normal, healthy person doesn't feel this way. It really is because of bullying, when i used to hang out with guys (12-14) they would have no problem touching, slapping asses, trying to get their first kiss, it came so natural to them. The weird one (me), that got bullied was very shy, docile, meek. Whatthefuck was wrong with me it is as if i worshipped my abusers, once they stopped i was cool with them i would still have to hangout with them, but i seriously wanted to have my revenge on them, had many violent fantasies, wait and you will see (that never happened) one of the worst things that have had happened to me was i got my palm slashed with a pocket knife because i didn't eat what i was told to eat(that was a decapitated small fish from our nearest pond) never told this to anyone, kept it to myself. Untill i moved into new apartment, if i said to my smother what was happening i would get bullied even more by the other guys. School was hell to me because (lots of kids from orphanage home, bullying) and going outside to hangout with others was also hell for me (bullying). Also i was called gay since the first grade 7y.o, people in college called me gay aswell, they even said i would make a great tranny. Sorry for the vent

 

[waste matter]

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

I also don't find genitals to be attractive tbh as vaginas look very alien and almost outlandish as I am aroused by women's face ass boobs legs and hair.
I also seem to have partialism as I look at the girls ass more when I'm masturbating to pornography.
I used to feel disgusted when I saw scenes where they were doing anal or deepthroat or other extreme sexual acts, but as I kept on watching I got accustomed to the hardcore sexual intercourse and it were deepthroat and anal and that's where I can go far as being aroused by such harcore extreme sexual acts.
Despite being aroused by deepthroat and anal I still find other sexual acts such as ass licking, pussy licking, or puking, pissing fucking disgusting and unbearable to watch as that is just too fucking disgusting for me.

On the prostitute part is where I agree completely, fuck them serious they are fucking leeches that sucks the lives out of lonely males like us.
I will never pay for a whore ever as that is like paying for an oxygen.
Even if I do it I don't think I can even perform well.
I am basically paying money to my arch enemy in order to humiliate me even more so fuck that.
I don't even think I could do that as I have been outcasted for so long as I am beyond repair to have any hope of ascension and you will never ascend by fucking hookers it will only make things worse.
They only want chad.

I have no choice, it never begun for me there is no way I can go lower than this I have hit the rock bottom.

 

[Heartless]

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

I feel pretty similar. I went through puberty early and was very attracted to girls when I was 9. Since I was never able to have any love or feelings returned I feel like I was never able to develop. I don’t think I’m a Lolicon or anything like that for real, I know if I could just have one relationship with a young girl, and then be with her until adulthood, and hopefully long after, I would be ‘cured’. I need my first love before I can ever be healed. Maybe I’m permanently crippled, idk, but I genuinely believe what I’ve said, just one long term relationship and I’m good. As for paying for whores, I wouldn’t ever pay for them in my country, but I’d travel to Cambodia where whores are cheap ($3-35) and abundant.

I just want someone to love me. I want to love them. I want to give them my entire life. I want them to give me theirs. Is it so much to ask that one girl to love me and me alone? This is why I like the idea about just importing a young wife, guaranteed to be a virgin and my only shot at ever actually finding happiness. If she could just love me back I’d spend my entire life making sure she is happy too, I want a partnership. I missed the phase as a kid, where these relationships are transient. I’m older. I want a life partner. Something permanent.

 

[Lebensmüder]

I also don't find genitals to be attractive tbh as vaginas look very alien and almost outlandish as I am aroused by women's face ass boobs legs and hair.
I also seem to have partialism as I look at the girls ass more when I'm masturbating to pornography.
I used to feel disgusted when I saw scenes where they were doing anal or deepthroat or other extreme sexual acts, but as I kept on watching I got accustomed to the hardcore sexual intercourse and it were deepthroat and anal and that's where I can go far as being aroused by such harcore extreme sexual acts.
Despite being aroused by deepthroat and anal I still find other sexual acts such as ass licking, pussy licking, or puking, pissing fucking disgusting and unbearable to watch as that is just too fucking disgusting for me.

On the prostitute part is where I agree completely, fuck them serious they are fucking leeches that sucks the lives out of lonely males like us.
I will never pay for a whore ever as that is like paying for an oxygen.
Even if I do it I don't think I can even perform well.
I am basically paying money to my arch enemy in order to humiliate me even more so fuck that.
I don't even think I could do that as I have been outcasted for so long as I am beyond repair to have any hope of ascension and you will never ascend by fucking hookers it will only make things worse.
They only want chad.

I have no choice, it never begun for me there is no way I can go lower than this I have hit the rock bottom.

This. Especially what you wrote about prostitutes is incredibly true.

Disgust is one of the strongest emotions i feel, besides fear, shame. A normal, healthy person doesn't feel this way. It really is because of bullying, when i used to hang out with guys (12-14) they would have no problem touching, slapping asses, trying to get their first kiss, it came so natural to them. The weird one (me), that got bullied was very shy, docile, meek. Whatthefuck was wrong with me it is as if i worshipped my abusers, once they stopped i was cool with them i would still have to hangout with them, but i seriously wanted to have my revenge on them, had many violent fantasies, wait and you will see (that never happened) one of the worst things that have had happened to me was i got my palm slashed with a pocket knife because i didn't eat what i was told to eat(that was a decapitated small fish from our nearest pond) never told this to anyone, kept it to myself. Untill i moved into new apartment, if i said to my smother what was happening i would get bullied even more by the other guys. School was hell to me because (lots of kids from orphanage home, bullying) and going outside to hangout with others was also hell for me (bullying). Also i was called gay since the first grade 7y.o, people in college called me gay aswell, they even said i would make a great tranny. Sorry for the vent

Man, really feel for you. Incredibly fucked up.

When I saw a prostitute I wasn't even able to cum

F

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

Incredibly brutal, I don't like any kind of foid anymore, I especially hate younger women because they went out of their way to humiliate me and made my life in school a living hell. I don't feel attraction to women, just bitterness. I have lost all feelings really, I have nothing, only contempt remains in my emotional repertoire. Even masturbation is nothing more than a purely mechanical act for me, I feel horny, I don't like the feeling, I jerk off, I feel nothing again. I want nothing and I am nothing. I am empty.

I feel pretty similar. I went through puberty early and was very attracted to girls when I was 9. Since I was never able to have any love or feelings returned I feel like I was never able to develop. I don’t think I’m a Lolicon or anything like that for real, I know if I could just have one relationship with a young girl, and then be with her until adulthood, and hopefully long after, I would be ‘cured’. I need my first love before I can ever be healed. Maybe I’m permanently crippled, idk, but I genuinely believe what I’ve said, just one long term relationship and I’m good. As for paying for whores, I wouldn’t ever pay for them in my country, but I’d travel to Cambodia where whores are cheap ($3-35) and abundant.

I just want someone to love me. I want to love them. I want to give them my entire life. I want them to give me theirs. Is it so much to ask that one girl to love me and me alone? This is why I like the idea about just importing a young wife, guaranteed to be a virgin and my only shot at ever actually finding happiness. If she could just love me back I’d spend my entire life making sure she is happy too, I want a partnership. I missed the phase as a kid, where these relationships are transient. I’m older. I want a life partner. Something permanent.

The last paragraph is incredibly brutal and reminds me of myself. I wanted nothing more than acceptance from women, I never even had a crush on one of the stereotypical hot women. I just wanted a girl with my interests with whom I could talk and who accepted me.

 

[kikecel]

maybe youre losing testosterone

 

[Solo Disident]

Disgust is one of the strongest emotions i feel, besides fear, shame. A normal, healthy person doesn't feel this way. It really is because of bullying, when i used to hang out with guys (12-14) they would have no problem touching, slapping asses, trying to get their first kiss, it came so natural to them. The weird one (me), that got bullied was very shy, docile, meek. Whatthefuck was wrong with me it is as if i worshipped my abusers, once they stopped i was cool with them i would still have to hangout with them, but i seriously wanted to have my revenge on them, had many violent fantasies, wait and you will see (that never happened) one of the worst things that have had happened to me was i got my palm slashed with a pocket knife because i didn't eat what i was told to eat(that was a decapitated small fish from our nearest pond) never told this to anyone, kept it to myself. Untill i moved into new apartment, if i said to my smother what was happening i would get bullied even more by the other guys. School was hell to me because (lots of kids from orphanage home, bullying) and going outside to hangout with others was also hell for me (bullying). Also i was called gay since the first grade 7y.o, people in college called me gay aswell, they even said i would make a great tranny. Sorry for the vent

I have to do a second tread about the story of my life and you will see you are not alone.
Its about my time when I was involved in real violent gangs and was abused by toilets to the point that now I cannot have a partener or I will beat her up everyday, 4real.
The story is so brutal but is long and its so dificult to shorten it up to just one thread and translate it to english!! Language is a problem for me

 

[your personality]

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

Imo it's not uncommon for whores to hate their males clients and low SMV males more than other foids. Particularly because even when money and a direct transaction is involved many of them regret that they have to service low SMV males.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

It's over if the only age group of girls you are attracted to is considered p3d0 by others.

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

Idk man there is no making up for missed teen love. Just try to cope as best as you can.

 

[Solo Disident]

On the prostitute part is where I agree completely, fuck them serious they are fucking leeches that sucks the lives out of lonely males like us.
I will never pay for a whore ever as that is like paying for an oxygen.
Even if I do it I don't think I can even perform well.
I am basically paying money to my arch enemy in order to humiliate me even more so fuck that.

Could not have said it better. Paying a prostitute is insulting to me. Why she does not pay for my dick?

Also another big problem we have were I live (to have a regular girlfriend) is that you have to pay everything for the girl, you have to have good income, a car, a house, paying her dinner, paying petrol, so on. And them? Nothing, they just give you their pussy. Their stinky ass hole.
I find this as intolerable as paying a hooker, if not more. So I could never have a normie relationship whith one of this whores around here, even if they showed interst in me, she will be expecting me to buy her vagina. They are just hookers man, and they are completelly fine with it. But I am not.

I also look more at their ass, face and hair than anything else. To put it worst, they circuncised me real bad and Im uanble to fap properlly on my own, as I need some mouth or vagina riding my cock to have a propper orgasm. Flesh to flesh due to a very sensible skin that reacts to anything plastic or artifical and lack of foreskin to do it with the hand. So I am completelly dependant on their body to feel pleasure. This alone, makes it for another thread. This is the reason i'm in permanent state of anxiety one day im gonna loose it, fuck a whore JB and go to jail.

I need my first love before I can ever be healed.

Me too, I suffer touch starvation, and does not go away with anything, except with real intercourse and loving hugging with your girl of choice.

When I saw a prostitute I wasn't even able to cum

I understand perfectly. I have such levels of anxiety and would be so unconfortable with a hooker that probably i would not even be able to make my peepee go up. You know what I mean?

 

[Deleted member 30187]

I cannot have a partener or I will beat her up everyday, 4real.

This, i feel like i couldn't love one. I would need her to be weaker, smaller, dumber than me also had no past relationships.

 

[Solo Disident]

Incredibly brutal, I don't like any kind of foid anymore, I especially hate younger women because they went out of their way to humiliate me and made my life in school a living hell. I don't feel attraction to women, just bitterness. I have lost all feelings really, I have nothing, only contempt remains in my emotional repertoire. Even masturbation is nothing more than a purely mechanical act for me, I feel horny, I don't like the feeling, I jerk off, I feel nothing again. I want nothing and I am nothing. I am empty.

Brutal indeed my friend. We are the group of 'brutals'

This, i feel like i couldn't love one. I would need her to be weaker, smaller, dumber than me also had no past relationships.

I will need her to prove to me she has not sold her beauty for money in orther to not beat her up. Good luck trying to find one of those here JFL

 

[Speedloader]

 

[your personality]

I am neither asexual nor a faggot. I find women sexually arousing, I like their bodies (e.g. boobs, hair, face, legs) and also have no physiological problem (e.g. I have the desire for sexual stimulation and the abillity to achieve it). But I don't find their genitals appealing or like the depiction of a sex act in pornography, I probably have partialism (e.g. paraphilia where the focus lies in other body parts than the reproductive organs). But I also find alternative sex acts like oral sex/anal sex disgusting, I have no desire to a fuck a hole where feces come out or even come into oral contact with those openings, I also think that I would find the smell and the microbiome there disgusting.

tbh at this point the idea of simply penetrating a vagina seems unimaginable and foreign and empty.

I would also never visit a whore. For the following reasons: a) I won't pay for things that other males get for free as a matter of course, b) I don't think that I could even perform, I would only pay money for someone who would laugh behind my back afterwards, I am not paying money only to be transformed into the laughing stock of the nation. I have no desire to learn anything about sex, because I find the act as a whole completely disgusting and women will also only feel aroused when they are pounded by a chad, I also have no idea how I would start with that topic or what I would do if I found myself suddenly in a situation where sex was available.

Understandable tbh

If a naked woman suddenly materialized out of nowhere, I would tell her to get lost. Normies tell you that you can learn about sex, but the truth is that a normal man has a biological compass that allows him to navigate correctly - a normal man instinctively knows what sex is or at least has a vague concept of it, he would know what to do, not knowing what to do is a sign of being completely sick in the brain. It's impossible to learn this, it's biologically ingrained, others were born with it. Even most incels would instinctively know what to do when there is a unicorn out there who would be willing to fuck them.

Cope tbh
You might hold out and be stand offish for a while but if she is persistent enough and gets into your head your feelings will take over and you'll chase after her in some way.
It's easy to say you'd tell foids off now when there are no foids even leading you on.

Sometimes I still feel emotions like loneliness/sadness, but otherwise there is nothing there anymore. Bullying has unironically effectively neutered me, sometimes I still strive for physical contact like a hug, but that is soon replaced by disgust. I am probably the only one who feels like this and I don't even know what's wrong with me, I really want to know it.

Same tbh bullying has damaged me beyond repair and made me look down on the vast majority of people as not worth knowing because interactions with them always lead to more disappointment and stress.

 

[Solo Disident]

This. Especially what you wrote about prostitutes is incredibly true.

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It's over if the only age group of girls you are attracted to is considered p3d0 by others.

Idk man there is no making up for missed teen love. Just try to cope as best as you can.

It is over isnt it?? Its so unfair as it is all a lie, a social construction.
Whats the point of trying to be good looking if I not gonna be able to have nothing?? Somebody can give me one good reason to looksmaxx in my situation?

 

[soymonkcel]

If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

I feel pretty similar. I went through puberty early and was very attracted to girls when I was 9.

None of this unnatural, buddyboyos. I had early attraction too (at 7 yo). And most heterosexual men are hephebophiles (97%). I think the % for hebephiles was around... 50%? 40%? Anyways, not a low % for sure.

 

[your personality]

It is over isnt it?? Its so unfair as it is all a lie, a social construction.
Whats the point of trying to be good looking if I not gonna be able to have nothing?? Somebody can give me one good reason to looksmaxx in my situation?

There is no reason to do anything when the world has already defeated you tbh
But it's like in ShySaxon's thread

Even though you gave up society still insists on coming after you.

And society really insisted on coming after people like us in 2020.

 

[Solo Disident]

There is no reason to do anything when the world has already defeated you tbh

 

[Lebensmüder]

There is no reason to do anything when the world has already defeated you tbh

 

[Mainländer]

Im not visiting a whore for the same reasons you describe.
I'm an ebephile, which means I started having a very strong normal sexual drive at puberty towards foids, and I wanted to have intimate sex with them. But out of the bulling and rejection something broke during that time and I find adult whores disgusting. Again, as you said, their ugly vaginas, the way they moan and talk stupid things during sex. The way the charge you just to have sex (paying for the date, petrol, no sex if you are broke, etc...) I find them the most satanic disgurting things on earth.
So I love them but hate them.

So in a way i have mental issues surrounding sexuality. I feel an extreme atraction towards young teenagers that I like, but a sort of strong repulsion from foids young or older that i dont like.
So is like I have an atraction-repulsion relation towards the oposite sex ans sex in general. And I'm stuck there. Thus I say I'm a mentalcel.

Also it does not help that the only girls that I like people say to me Im a pedo and I could go to jail if I fuck them for real when Im not (I've never felt sexual arousal from any pre-pubescent girl in my life).
Also I need intimacy and higiene, and not the rought sex that the evil toilets like, like choking, anal sex, smacking and so on...

Is there something wrong with me?? I was normal, until this perverted toilets broke everything that seemed natural to me...

What your thoughts @waste matter @soymonkcel @Heartless @Mainländer @MSCW @TheNEET @your personality ???
I wanted to have a natural relation with sex when i was a teen... JFL Look how I've ended.
If it wasnt for my atraction to JBs still I would probably become a volcel
Something is wrong with me right boyos??

Those ambivalent feelings towards foids are something very common, especially as an incel. Foids and cucks don't have IQ enough to grasp that type of ambivalence, it's either black or white for them. We wanted to love foids, but their behavior made us hate them instead. It's like what a kid would feel towards a negligent and abusive parent.

I'm a lot like you. I feel much more attracted to young JBs than to older women (although I also feel attracted to the latter) and I'm almost certain this is not 100% because they're simply more attractive objectively on average (they are), but also because of mental stuckness in teen years due to lack of crucial formative experiences and trauma.

What I can say to soothe your pain is, JBs are just as bad as adult foids these days, maybe even worse because of the generation they belong to. They start masturbating and sending nudes around at single digits nowadays, and dating and having sex shortly after in most cases. This newer generation is degenerate as shit, they grow up with extreme porn, social media and extreme leftist/feminist indoctrination since yearly childhood. Also, JBs tend to be superficial as fuck and even if you got a JB girlfriend by a miracle, she'd more likely than not leave you (possibly in a traumatic way like ghosting, cheating or a combination of the two) and you'd end up in a worse mental state than now.

It's all over bro. It's over even for Chads in terms of committed relationships and marriage, let alone us. It's all destroyed. Believe in Jesus, the rapture is probably coming soon.

 

[I want to believe]

Disgust is one of the strongest emotions i feel, besides fear, shame. A normal, healthy person doesn't feel this way. It really is because of bullying, when i used to hang out with guys (12-14) they would have no problem touching, slapping asses, trying to get their first kiss, it came so natural to them. The weird one (me), that got bullied was very shy, docile, meek. Whatthefuck was wrong with me it is as if i worshipped my abusers, once they stopped i was cool with them i would still have to hangout with them, but i seriously wanted to have my revenge on them, had many violent fantasies, wait and you will see (that never happened) one of the worst things that have had happened to me was i got my palm slashed with a pocket knife because i didn't eat what i was told to eat(that was a decapitated small fish from our nearest pond) never told this to anyone, kept it to myself. Untill i moved into new apartment, if i said to my smother what was happening i would get bullied even more by the other guys. School was hell to me because (lots of kids from orphanage home, bullying) and going outside to hangout with others was also hell for me (bullying). Also i was called gay since the first grade 7y.o, people in college called me gay aswell, they even said i would make a great tranny. Sorry for the vent

Some people are such nasty assholes. It was sad to read that.

 

[kampman]

tbh at this point the idea of simply penetrating a vagina seems unimaginable and foreign and empty.

When I was escortcelling, this was the hardest part for me.
Pussy was her least attractive feature.

 

[Solo Disident]

We wanted to love foids, but their behavior made us hate them instead. It's like what a kid would feel towards a negligent and abusive parent.

Acurate as fuck. Have had also those parents and i feel sort of the same towards them.

What I can say to soothe your pain is, JBs are just as bad as adult foids these days, maybe even worse because of the generation they belong to. They start masturbating and sending nudes around at single digits nowadays, and dating and having sex shortly after in most cases. This newer generation is degenerate as shit, they grow up with extreme porn, social media and extreme leftist/feminist indoctrination since yearly childhood. Also, JBs tend to be superficial as fuck and even if you got a JB girlfriend by a miracle, she'd more likely than not leave you (possibly in a traumatic way like ghosting, cheating or a combination of the two) and you'd end up in a worse mental state than now.

JBs are the worst from the worst, and I know it. Even in my generation were allready degenerate as you describe. They were such a traumatic experience. They still are, as I got stuck too due to lack of crucial formative experiences and trauma as you say. I hate them. The thing I hate the most is that all foids get away with anything they do and you cannot beat them or control them thanks to feminism. Hope I live long enought to do something to reverse that situation.

I don't believe in anything. If anything I have to find a way to suffer less till my death. But I don't manage.

When I was escortcelling, this was the hardest part for me.
Pussy was her least attractive feature.

Maybe thats why regular foids will show their entire body but that part. Haven't you thought about it?
Its been years since Im convinced of it.

 

[Wizard32]

I don't find their genitals appealing or like the depiction of a sex act in pornography,
I probably have partialism (e.g. paraphilia where the focus lies in other body parts than the reproductive organs).

I don't think your condition is that uncommon, a lot of guys like to have sex with the lights off and that might have something to do with not wanting to look at genitals even if they like the face of their partner. That could be a thing for foids too, I imagine not every foid who takes a dick likes the look of cocks.

Of course I think a big part of this is a natural aversion to deformed wrinkled age roastie genitalia. 2D illustrations of lolis tend to be a lot more aesthetic.

I won't pay for things that other males get for free as a matter of course

The flaw in this reasoning is lots of gigachads are given free food by foids, so by this logic you should refuse to pay for food.
Hello, chads get free ipads (Ellen Degeneres gave one to "Alex from Target") so does this mean you will refuse to pay for computers too?

This is more specific than some generic "won't pay for what chad gets free" guys.

It's because we want to be wanted: it's not just about the sex but wanting the enthusiasm as validation.

I think it's because some of us sometimes have empathy for women and want them to enjoy the experience too, and it's hard to feel that way when you think the prime motive is cash: it makes you think that could be the ONLY motive.

If a naked woman suddenly materialized out of nowhere, I would tell her to get lost.

No you wouldn't you would be terrified into shocked silence by the supernatural phenomenon.

Normies tell you that you can learn about sex,
but the truth is that a normal man has a biological compass that allows him to navigate correctly
- a normal man instinctively knows what sex is or at least has a vague concept of it,
he would know what to do,
not knowing what to do is a sign of being completely sick in the brain.
It's impossible to learn this, it's biologically ingrained, others were born with

You're LARPing OP sex isn't complicated: dick feels good with sensations which come from moving so you move it via hip thrusts.

Yeah you're not going to be some kind of expert G-spot hitter or cunnilingus master but the basic sexual act is about as complex as the patellar reflex.

I still strive for physical contact like a hug,
but that is soon replaced by disgust.
I am probably the only one who feels like this

OP you're not that special a snowflake a lot of people have mixed feelings about intimacy.

If a foid hugged me I'd have mixed feelings too:

1) surprise: wtf is happening​

2) happiness: OMG getting hugged​

3) suspicion: but WHY is she hugging me?​

4) disgust/hatred: I jump to conclusions about sinister motives for her hugging me​

5) sadness: why can't I get a genuine hug?​

Sad thing is, if I was hypothetically loved and got a genuine hug I'd prob feel this way too, am that poisoned by life.

Perhaps many foids feel this way too, like any guy who wants to hug them or do nice things for them only wants to cum in them one time and then cheat on them or give them STDs or rape them or some shit.

You'd think that mutual suspicion/twistedness could help us bond if we acknowledged each other's experiences but that can be hard since people are very prone to division and suffering-competitions. We see that even here with guys trying to out-incel each other in brag contests and expel the 'not incel enough' guys.

 

[Lebensmüder]

OP you're not that special a snowflake a lot of people have mixed feelings about intimacy.

If a foid hugged me I'd have mixed feelings too:

1) surprise: wtf is happening​

2) happiness: OMG getting hugged​

3) suspicion: but WHY is she hugging me?​

4) disgust/hatred: I jump to conclusions about sinister motives for her hugging me​

5) sadness: why can't I get a genuine hug?​

Sad thing is, if I was hypothetically loved and got a genuine hug I'd prob feel this way too, am that poisoned by life.

Perhaps many foids feel this way too, like any guy who wants to hug them or do nice things for them only wants to cum in them one time and then cheat on them or give them STDs or rape them or some shit.

You'd think that mutual suspicion/twistedness could help us bond if we acknowledged each other's experiences but that can be hard since people are very prone to division and suffering-competitions. We see that even here with guys trying to out-incel each other in brag contests and expel the 'not incel enough' guys.

Brutal. And true.