Blackpill Social Anxiety

[TheJester]

I think my social anxiety is off the rails now.

My Depression is actually low now due to ritalin and CBT but I am sorry, I just dont want to even meet people anymore.

Just standing near them pisses me off.

Uhm, I made that post about going to the theater. Once again I couldn't feel lonelier being surrounded by 800 people. I cant stand the screaming, the endless clapping, the growling.

I also dont enjoy whats being played. I only go once every 3 months in order to get "underneath people" but really it doesnt do well for me.

Even at work, I (secretly) cant stand a single person there and tbh I assume most cant stand me either but still play it off.

I hate it so much, I might just look up for another job now.

My phone usage is also off the rails its 7 hours now. I plan to get to 3 hours. Mostly trading, discord, youtube, ChatGPT and .is.

But I hate talking over the phone. When people (parents or work) call me I could scream.

I also cant take the demands from people anymore - Literally im 25 but I am just too fucking old for this shit.

The moment I was born I was demanded to do things - even as a fucking Baby because I had a skin disease and needed to do all kinds of things to get rid of it (still have it, its genetical).

The thing is Gentleman: I dont really want anything anymore. Maybe relationship MAYBE it could cheer me a bit up get. Maybe a girl could bring me closer again to society.

Yet, on the other hand ENDLESS demands. Endless bullshit were I just question "Why?". This world is not modern at all. This world pretends to be modern, but its regressing every year and so am I. And I dont even particulary mean Agepill, I just mean everything.

I am just so OVERWHELMED, yet everything is so UNDERWHELMING.

2025 wont be better. Tbh might just be even worse (again). Not just for me, i think most people are just sick of it.

But then again...hey... it never began.

 

[Starfish]

Yep social anxiety is brutal. especially as an incel.

 

[DoomerGuy831]

Brutal, I hope everything goes right for you

 

[TheJester]

 

[Grodd]

Yep social anxiety is brutal. especially as an incel.

 

[Grodd]

I'm at a point where i give zero fucks i know my life is meaningless so my anxiety has gone down a good amount

 

[aggelaras]

Feeling the same

 

[curryboy420]

I hate how people react to me interacting with them. Always with that subtle disrespect and disinterest. They're too polite to do it outright if they are family or workers. And strangers usually don't either. But I can feel it every time. If you look at their face you can see the micro expressions. And you can tell in their actions when they prioritise everything else over you and what you ask of them. I don't talk to people anymore unless required to get something.

Only the local crackheads talk to me in England. They are also suffering in life I guess, but they usually have partners and friends. But even with them, I know I bore them and they probably laugh at my patheticness later.

Fuck it.