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DryDick
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In middle school I got verbally abused and bullied almost every day. Because I was the short and quiet kid, bigger students felt like they could make fun of my unattractive features all they wanted - without fear of me hurting them physically. Not only that, when I got home my dad would be extremely critical of me and belittle me all the time.
This toxic mix of home and school life has forever fucked my brain up. Now I feel socially anxious whenever I am in public and I can't seem to get over it. No matter how hard I try I can't let go of this fucking anxiety. It has caused me to not even want to leave my house. I leave jobs if they require too much social interaction, instead I work low-paying stocker jobs - even though I have a degree, I pass up interviews, I am very passive and taciturn, I don't assert myself, I speak in a low voice. I fucking hate this shit. I am almost 30 years old. I thought I would get over this by now but I'm still plague by this horrendous disease.
This toxic mix of home and school life has forever fucked my brain up. Now I feel socially anxious whenever I am in public and I can't seem to get over it. No matter how hard I try I can't let go of this fucking anxiety. It has caused me to not even want to leave my house. I leave jobs if they require too much social interaction, instead I work low-paying stocker jobs - even though I have a degree, I pass up interviews, I am very passive and taciturn, I don't assert myself, I speak in a low voice. I fucking hate this shit. I am almost 30 years old. I thought I would get over this by now but I'm still plague by this horrendous disease.