I can't take this anymore, the place where I'm supposed to feel home is filled to the brim with toxicity and negative energy, my bitch of a mother is always in a mood, always unstable, she might even be Bipolar, I tell her always why the fuck do you yell at me and she says its for my own good or some shit, I finished important exams and she still yells, for what good is it now?! She's just doing it cause she's an absolute bitch, I did some entry exams for some colleges, and she still yells, I'm hungry, I don't have cash, My brother is an unstable fuck who hit me last week almost broke my shin, Who's gonna repay for me that? Where's my retribution? And when I kept bitching to my mom about it, showing the mark on my shin, she just held her head and stopped scrolling her phone looking distant like she's gonna cry, BITCH YOU GAVE BIRTH TO THAT FUCK, WHENEVER HE CRASHED OUT YOU ALWAYS VICTIMIZE ME SO HE DOESN'T GET ANGRIER, SHE ALWAYS HOLDS HIM BACK BUT IM NOT A KID ANYMORE, IF SHE DIDNT HOLD HIM BACK I WOULD HAVE SENT THAT NIGGA TO THE GRAVES, IM TIRED OF BEING THE VICTIM, IM tired of this so called Home, I feel no safety, Im cornered, I waited and waited for years.. But I genuinely cannot wait for college to end to find a job and stabilize just to leave home, I'm gonna leave it tonight, it doesn't matter If I don't go to another one, I always wanted a peaceful and quiet home, that dream always gets distant the more and more I age, goodbye cruel world, I'm not sorry
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