It’s almost exciting! After so, so many years of suffering. I may actually have a concrete plan that is guaranteed to kill me. Painful? Yes, but I’ll accept that, and it’s quick, the human body can only lose but so much blood before going unconscious. At least I’d know 100% that I will finally be at peace, there’s no doubt about it. I’ll have closure when I’m ready to do this. The heart is 3 - 4 inches deep but I’d jam the entire thing inside if it means getting out of this.
