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My parents are "decent" parents on the surface. They did all the basic shit for me like made sure I wasn't homeless, fed me, bought me clothes and essential items, etc. They never drank, smoked, did drugs, crimes, or anything bad really. I had both parents growing up and they never got divorced. Much better than getting raised by a single mother for sure. For that I am grateful. Still I can't help but feel that they had a huge part in fucking me over big time, making my life harder than it had to be. They tried to do what's best for me. Unfortunately what's "best" to them isn't really "best" when it comes to living in the real world. They did shit like...
Raising me to be beta af: This is my biggest grievance honestly. All I was ever taught is that I should studycuck really hard in school, graduate college, get a good high paying job, work, get married and have kids. That's it, anything I didn't mention in the last sentence was never talked about with me. Didn't teach me shit about the importance of eating healthy, working out, managing money, investing, or any other really important stuff. All of that I had to learn on my own through the internet. When they wanted to check up on me, they would me ask not "Hi how are you?", but instead "Hi how is school/studying going?". That's how brutal it was. They only cared about me studycucking and getting perfect grades. They didn't care whether I was happy and enjoying life. They could have walked in on me setting up a noose to rope and their reaction might have been something like "There's time for that later. Finish your homework first then come back to it"
Forcing religion on me: I dont even want to say which religion it is since im scared of being doxxed. I will say this though: it is a high maintenance religion where you have to do a lot of things everyday and it's more tedious compared to other religions (that probably gave it away but whatever idc) For most of my life I really thought God existed. That this all powerful, loving being was there watching over me and rewarding me for being a good person. Then life hit me. Seeing myself and other decent people suffer while assholes and bullies thrived and succeeded. Many unanswered prayers made me question my faith. I stopped believing and my life was not affected at all. I realized all this time I had been praying to an imaginary man-made sky daddy. Now I am an agnostic atheist though I still need to larp as a religious nigger in front of them. I have to go to attend "church" and do other religious bullshit just to appease my parents. Every time I complain to them about an issue, their go to NPC response is to pray and ask God to help you overcome your struggle. Nothing practical. Always just pray your problems away, bro! Oh praying didn't work? Oh yeah bro, God is just testing you trust me! It says right here in this book written thousands of years ago!
Helicopter parenting: They always had to know where I was and what I was doing. Not that I even left the house that much (JFL) but still. One time I was heading outside for 1 minute to check the mail and my mom stops me and asks "where are you going" in the most condescending tone I've ever heard in my life. Another example of this shit is one time I got invited to a birthday party my first year of high school. Before niggers start accusing me of being fakecel partygoer: This is the one and only time in my life I was invited to hang out outside of school by someone from school. No females were involved and it was only me, the birthday kid, and 3 other dudes i.e. not even much of a "party". All we did was eat cake, drink coke, and play games on his Wii U. The brutal part about this was the fact that was my mom was sending me texts every 5 mins checking up on me. I wish I still had my old phone so I can upload screenshots of those texts. She said things like "Hi are you safe", "Call me if you get into trouble I can come get you". Basically treating me like a toddler who couldnt care or think for himself. I was 14 or 15 years old at the time jfl. I have a feeling that even if I had a foid interested in me in high school the opportunity would have gone to waste due to helicopter parenting. This kind of parenting ultimately turned me into an anxious paranoid high inhib retard.
Very anti-gaming: They always told me that video games are a waste of time and that I should do something else with my time. During school year, they would take my gaming console and hide it so I couldn't play, not even after school if I had no homework, and not even during weekends. I was only allowed to game in the long summer/winter breaks. Its strange because they let me watch TV, but no gaming for whatever reason. I still don't know what was the deal with this tbh. Jfl literally deprived of one of my only copes in life.
There are a few other things that I will omit to keep this from becoming a novel. In conclusion, i dunno bros. I have this deep resentment and feeling of betrayal towards them. Should I hate them? Should I try to forgive them for unintentionally fucking me up and making my childhood/teenhood shittier than it had to be? Please share if anyone has similar experiences.
Raising me to be beta af: This is my biggest grievance honestly. All I was ever taught is that I should studycuck really hard in school, graduate college, get a good high paying job, work, get married and have kids. That's it, anything I didn't mention in the last sentence was never talked about with me. Didn't teach me shit about the importance of eating healthy, working out, managing money, investing, or any other really important stuff. All of that I had to learn on my own through the internet. When they wanted to check up on me, they would me ask not "Hi how are you?", but instead "Hi how is school/studying going?". That's how brutal it was. They only cared about me studycucking and getting perfect grades. They didn't care whether I was happy and enjoying life. They could have walked in on me setting up a noose to rope and their reaction might have been something like "There's time for that later. Finish your homework first then come back to it"
Forcing religion on me: I dont even want to say which religion it is since im scared of being doxxed. I will say this though: it is a high maintenance religion where you have to do a lot of things everyday and it's more tedious compared to other religions (that probably gave it away but whatever idc) For most of my life I really thought God existed. That this all powerful, loving being was there watching over me and rewarding me for being a good person. Then life hit me. Seeing myself and other decent people suffer while assholes and bullies thrived and succeeded. Many unanswered prayers made me question my faith. I stopped believing and my life was not affected at all. I realized all this time I had been praying to an imaginary man-made sky daddy. Now I am an agnostic atheist though I still need to larp as a religious nigger in front of them. I have to go to attend "church" and do other religious bullshit just to appease my parents. Every time I complain to them about an issue, their go to NPC response is to pray and ask God to help you overcome your struggle. Nothing practical. Always just pray your problems away, bro! Oh praying didn't work? Oh yeah bro, God is just testing you trust me! It says right here in this book written thousands of years ago!
Helicopter parenting: They always had to know where I was and what I was doing. Not that I even left the house that much (JFL) but still. One time I was heading outside for 1 minute to check the mail and my mom stops me and asks "where are you going" in the most condescending tone I've ever heard in my life. Another example of this shit is one time I got invited to a birthday party my first year of high school. Before niggers start accusing me of being fakecel partygoer: This is the one and only time in my life I was invited to hang out outside of school by someone from school. No females were involved and it was only me, the birthday kid, and 3 other dudes i.e. not even much of a "party". All we did was eat cake, drink coke, and play games on his Wii U. The brutal part about this was the fact that was my mom was sending me texts every 5 mins checking up on me. I wish I still had my old phone so I can upload screenshots of those texts. She said things like "Hi are you safe", "Call me if you get into trouble I can come get you". Basically treating me like a toddler who couldnt care or think for himself. I was 14 or 15 years old at the time jfl. I have a feeling that even if I had a foid interested in me in high school the opportunity would have gone to waste due to helicopter parenting. This kind of parenting ultimately turned me into an anxious paranoid high inhib retard.
Very anti-gaming: They always told me that video games are a waste of time and that I should do something else with my time. During school year, they would take my gaming console and hide it so I couldn't play, not even after school if I had no homework, and not even during weekends. I was only allowed to game in the long summer/winter breaks. Its strange because they let me watch TV, but no gaming for whatever reason. I still don't know what was the deal with this tbh. Jfl literally deprived of one of my only copes in life.
There are a few other things that I will omit to keep this from becoming a novel. In conclusion, i dunno bros. I have this deep resentment and feeling of betrayal towards them. Should I hate them? Should I try to forgive them for unintentionally fucking me up and making my childhood/teenhood shittier than it had to be? Please share if anyone has similar experiences.
