My eyes are twitching so hard right now I am angry and frustrated. Why do always when I feel good my dad has to ruin everything with his attitude? It's literally his fault for how i turned out like the neglect and everything at a young age and him restricting me to do fun things that all of my peers did in their childhood. He's ruined my life and wants to blame me for my incapability. I am losing it right now brocels why can't I have a normal household where I am not being reminded of how valueless and stupid I am ? I don't give a single shit anymore I just want to fucking rope there is no turning point now my brain won't recover from this trauma and abuse I am just becoming more mentally ill as the days pass and more stressed. I feel like I am not going to make it any longer anyways with all of this stress I am going through every single day. Nearly lost it once and was considering jumping off the roof I was not even giving it a second thought I was ready to do it. What saved me was that I felt like tied up to my bed and even if I wanted to I couldn't get up. My eye twitching does not stop as I am writing this I am truly going insane. On top of that knowing that I am never going to be loved by a female makes it much worse. Normies compensate with their loving girlfriends if they've been put through hell as a child. I will never be able to experience what being loved feels like I've never had a single minute in my life where I've felt happy.
Making this thread twice since I posted it in the Bunker so my apologies for that.
Making this thread twice since I posted it in the Bunker so my apologies for that.
