Serious Scared to overcommit and get blackpilled

[copecopter]

I went to the gym and it was full of nasty, rude people and I just felt really anxious all the time. But to get my money's worth I went consistently and finished the whole month.

I am 99.99% into continuing exercising at home.

90% of my exercises are dumbbell-based and I can keep investing progressively on DBs as soon as I max the ones I already got. I can't buy adjustable DBs post 10 kg because of the import fees and the Chinese ones sold in stores here could snap and wreck me.

So, I have to keep buying fixed weight DBs at a progressive rate.

I don't care since I will consistently exercise.

Now, the problem is, my body is unpredictable. My feet hurt, my elbows hurt, my wrists hurt if I do XYZ movement, etc.
I am scared of investing all my $ on those DBs just to eventually stop exercising due to some injury.

What to do? I don't want to stay fat and I want to look fit at least, but my body's injury-prone and fragile.

 

[nihilum]

I lost weight by restricting calories and eating healthy.

 

[nihilum]

and walking outside at night for long distances

 

[She Does Not Exist]

Diet first.

I'm at 5'7 69KG now, from 130KG in around 4 years, consistency is key.

I'm in way, way better shape than most men my age, you need to keep protein high while maintaining calories low, you will be lean by the time you reach BMI or below.

I'm been consistently eating four hard boiled eggs every morning for the past year, plus I'm a natural meat eater so breakfast for me is at a bare minimum 400g of red meat.

Look for OMA or 20:4 if you REALLY want to leanmaxx or skinnymaxx.

 

[She Does Not Exist]

Also manage stress to not binge, I'm drinking tea now so I can keep my anxiety / stress in check.