Serious Sad anecdote about my suicidal behavior at a young age

[Ellsworth]

I remember having suicidal thoughts at an extremely young age, like under 10. I never attempted suicide but I would sometimes go into the kitchen and grab the biggest kitchen knife and hold the point against my chest or abdomen and imagine plunging it in.

Also on a couple occasions I took 4 aspirin because it thought I might OD. lol I was just a kid and didn’t realize how that is nowhere near suicide dose.

Makes me sad to think about this. No kid that young should have those behaviors.

 

[FrothySolutions]

Did you actually want to die? What feelings were you feeling back then?

 

[Deleted member 27495]

i was brainwashed into believing suicide was going to land me an eternity in hell so it never crossed my mind. Now its the only thing on my mind.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I disfigured the skin on my left arm/left leg through cutting and burning the fuck out of myself. Although this wasn't done in an effort to kill myself, sometimes I thought about the possibility of killing myself by severing my femoral and radial arteries. Glad I didn't do it tbh, as it probably wouldn't have worked without something like blood thinners to stop the blood from clotting. Nasty suicide method anyway, not really a fun way to die.

 

[Deleted member 22572]

Ye I did similar things also at that age

 

[your personality]

Having suicidal thoughts that young is a bad sign but I can relate. In elementary school itself it can be rough not being accepted by anyone and being shunned when you try to reach out.

 

[Deleted member 26358]

Holy shit. I did the exact same thing but with a knife against my wrist instead.