Lv99_BixNood
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View: https://old.reddit.com/r/TwoXChromosomes/comments/1pss7nz/i_dont_want_a_relationship_right_now_but_my/
he's a great guy across the board and he has a promising future. he is the perfect boyfriend in every single way you can possibly picture, no exaggeration. we've never fought, he's never disrespected me or yelled. his only flaw in my eyes is that he sometimes comes off slightly arrogant because he is very intelligent.
whether it's a product of my sex drive being destroyed by my birth control or the long distance relationship, i've begun questioning the relationship. he's great on paper, but i don't feel all that passionately towards the relationship. most of the time i'd rather be alone than with him, or with anyone.
+ with the very low sex drive, i sometimes slightly dislike hanging out with him because of the possibility of sex. i never really desire sex and being with him in person and knowing he wants to have sex just puts me in an uncomfortable situation where i'm trying to subtly dodge his advances.
i know this is all extremely selfish and cynical. i want a life partner down the road, but i don't really want a boyfriend. but i obviously can't just break up with him and put him on hold for 5 years, and i really think this is the closest to husband material i'll ever get. i'm growing to resent him and the relationship and he's done nothing wrong. it feels like a shift i have to clock in to, texting him updates throughout the day and facetiming him every night to have the same repetitive conversation.
"Husband material"





