I didn't think that being autistic myself id be able to feel uncanny valley creepy feelings from another autist but it indeed happened one time
used to attend a daytime loneliness group filled with middle aged and older people and a few autists, one autistic dude called J turned up and we got along pretty well and we spoke and chatted every time we was there, and one time we celebrated a fireworks show at Christmas time and went to the pub with a couple other group members afterwards and I just remember suddenly getting creeped out by him, it happened out of nowhere and I couldn't shake it and I still can't shake it, it was just this instant icky creepy feeling, I think the fact he said he couldn't drink cuz of his medication probably set the scene for this feeling to unfold but it still shocked me how I went from thinking he was a genuine kindred spirit type thing to just suddenly being like "this guy is weird AF" and I could NOT control it, I've seen him a few times last summer and it's only now starting to wear off again but it's always gunna be there now and I feel so bad for it but it's not even something I could control, I kept trying to actively force myself to find him cool again but just couldn't
Is this how I fucking make NT's feel all the time? Christ no wonder they all stare at me and treat me like a creep and talk to me like I'm mentally disabled if that's how I make them feel
used to attend a daytime loneliness group filled with middle aged and older people and a few autists, one autistic dude called J turned up and we got along pretty well and we spoke and chatted every time we was there, and one time we celebrated a fireworks show at Christmas time and went to the pub with a couple other group members afterwards and I just remember suddenly getting creeped out by him, it happened out of nowhere and I couldn't shake it and I still can't shake it, it was just this instant icky creepy feeling, I think the fact he said he couldn't drink cuz of his medication probably set the scene for this feeling to unfold but it still shocked me how I went from thinking he was a genuine kindred spirit type thing to just suddenly being like "this guy is weird AF" and I could NOT control it, I've seen him a few times last summer and it's only now starting to wear off again but it's always gunna be there now and I feel so bad for it but it's not even something I could control, I kept trying to actively force myself to find him cool again but just couldn't
Is this how I fucking make NT's feel all the time? Christ no wonder they all stare at me and treat me like a creep and talk to me like I'm mentally disabled if that's how I make them feel
