As a kid i thought that i was actually good looking despite not getting IOIs. I never felt ugly or something like that.
Maby it was because as a kid you are still cute despite being ugly but now I am just ugly but not cute anymore.
But as i grew older, i started to get more and more in touch with reality and the self-realization made it impossible to cope with my looks. I had to admit that i am truly ugly and not lovable or respectable in the eyes of society.
I literally died inside, never felt joy of happiness since that realization.
The only thing I can cope rn with is my young age.
I am in my early 20‘s, so i have hair and shit, but when i lose that too, it will be even worse than now.
Maby it was because as a kid you are still cute despite being ugly but now I am just ugly but not cute anymore.
But as i grew older, i started to get more and more in touch with reality and the self-realization made it impossible to cope with my looks. I had to admit that i am truly ugly and not lovable or respectable in the eyes of society.
I literally died inside, never felt joy of happiness since that realization.
The only thing I can cope rn with is my young age.
I am in my early 20‘s, so i have hair and shit, but when i lose that too, it will be even worse than now.
