Putting my life in damger to cope

[GodOfScorn]

Ive recently become addicted to adrenaline rushes. I cant stop getting aroused and excited at the thought of someone putting a gun to my head and screaming that their gonna shoot. Everytime i see a tall structure i want to climb it, evertime I see a sharp object i want to carve into myself. cant help but put my life on the line. Without a partner, near death experiences are the only way to live and yet it brings me closer to death each time.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXgswULlWik

 

[GodOfScorn]

We hope you find the peace you need.
I'm not a professional and my words should be taken with a grain of salt but you should know that normies do indeed use this as a form of mental torture towards men they find ugly.
They'll make it so that the unattractive man hates himself and internalizes the hate he's received all his life all while thinking it's all his fault.
May you break out of that loop brocel.
Problem with mental health professionals is that they prescribe pills without telling about the side effects. Or they'll just snitch on you and report you to authorities to lock the said incel into an asylum even if he's just expressing his thoughts without any intention to harm himself or others.
Try to find quiet time alone to do what you love that doesn't involve any form of self-harm.

Thanks. This is the first respectable comment I have ever revieved on this toxic site.

 

[Cletus Longthing]

Hurt normfags instead shit in their mailbox

 

[Hans Müller]

Ive recently become addicted to adrenaline rushes. I cant stop getting aroused and excited at the thought of someone putting a gun to my head and screaming that their gonna shoot. Everytime i see a tall structure i want to climb it, evertime I see a sharp object i want to carve into myself. cant help but put my life on the line. Without a partner, near death experiences are the only way to live and yet it brings me closer to death each time.

I do not know why you are banned, but I still wanted to answer because I have exactly the same thoughts. I am not a professional by no means, but I had exactly the same symptoms as yours (and more) and after going to psychiatric hospital and talking to doctors I was diagnosed with Borderline. Such impulses to do dangerous things are definitely a symptom of Borderline, and of course, just because you have one of the symptoms doesn't mean you have it, but just saying that you might want to go and have a talk with a psychiatrist. It certainly helped me to do that and start a therapy. Otherwise, the possibility that it will continue like this is very high, because I was like that for a very long time and would also continue if I hadn't started my therapy.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

buy some VR games and get your rush from there.

 

[wildbeast]

If it comes to it, make sure that you don't suffer when you die, if that is feasible.