LDAR Tired of having to pretend like anything besides sex matters in life

[ANTAGONIST]

I don't care about muh career, i don't care about muh money, i don't care about muh having a home etc, i don't care about having friends etc

Everytime, someone asks what i want to do with my life. Everytime i'm asked to fill out some form "what do you see yourself doing in the next 10 years?" blah blah blah. I don't care at all, i have the urge to just anwser truthfully "i only want to put my penis inside a vagina!". I don't care about any of this superfical stuff. We are animals and we are meant to live naturally.

Maybe if i did get sex, i would different but currently i couldn't know that because i have never gotten sex in my whole life. For many others, it's a given. Personally, nothing gets me excited. It's all so dull. Even suicide doesn't sound fun. As time goes on, it's only going to get worse. Even if i managed to ascend, nothing would make up for the time that was lost not getting laid. I truly despise this hellrealm and the trajectory my life has been going since puberty.

 

[nihilist chud]

I want to be truly loved

 

[Dolls & Gor]

Maybe if i did get sex, i would different

Of course. It's step zero.

Nobody has sold me on the notion 'take little steps, make changes, and then that splendid thing may come around.' That's a waste of time with no certainty, no likelihood, and only pointless humiliation.

It simplifies to "you have to EARN a girlfriend". Are they joking – when all the people around me have been swimming in it since middle school?

 

[nihilum]

I need a girlfriend.