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malakai
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- Dec 11, 2017
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I’m 21. An adult.
The eldest out of all my cousins(except 1) but importantly, the man of my home. I graduated school ‘14 but what have I done since then? Rot. I held one baking job that lasted a week, a sales job that lasted six weeks and then they gave me the boot.
I see a Fmoid shrink every week who no doubt thinks I am pathetic. I have no friends of either gender, and used to have to beg girls to speak to me online. I don’t even have the energy to cry; I think some people just are born beta, and this was just my time.
Now I spend every day in my room like a true NEET, a life filled with regret and it hurts. It hurts because this path could have been avoided. (No brag) but I’m white and tall so idk how I managed to fuck up with those Genetics. I fear the future because, I told myself I would make a change this year but it’s april. I miss the friends I used to have, miss the one girl I trusted online until I found out she resides in California (kek). If I could just revert to being 18 I would turn this shit around
The eldest out of all my cousins(except 1) but importantly, the man of my home. I graduated school ‘14 but what have I done since then? Rot. I held one baking job that lasted a week, a sales job that lasted six weeks and then they gave me the boot.
I see a Fmoid shrink every week who no doubt thinks I am pathetic. I have no friends of either gender, and used to have to beg girls to speak to me online. I don’t even have the energy to cry; I think some people just are born beta, and this was just my time.
Now I spend every day in my room like a true NEET, a life filled with regret and it hurts. It hurts because this path could have been avoided. (No brag) but I’m white and tall so idk how I managed to fuck up with those Genetics. I fear the future because, I told myself I would make a change this year but it’s april. I miss the friends I used to have, miss the one girl I trusted online until I found out she resides in California (kek). If I could just revert to being 18 I would turn this shit around