Venting Trauma responses

[Lazyandtalentless]

I don’t know how to put it, but I feel like my mind and body are stuck in this loop of pain that I can’t escape from. No matter what I do, I can’t seem to break free from the trauma that’s been with me since I was a kid. It’s like everything I try just brings me back to the same place—feeling worthless, isolated, and alone. I don’t know how to trust people anymore. I can’t connect with anyone. Every time I try, I end up feeling rejected or like I don’t belong. I’m constantly isolating myself because it feels safer than being around people who just see me as a freak. I’m hyper-vigilant. I am always scanning for danger, even when it’s not there. I’m also disconnected from the world around me. It’s the same with my emotions—I can’t seem to process anything the right way. I’ll feel angry or sad, but it doesn’t make sense. Everything feels wrong, like I’m broken in a way I can’t fix. The worst part is that I still blame myself. I keep blaming myself for everything that’s happened. I can’t let go of these thoughts, and they just keep feeding into my shame. I feel like I deserve all this pain because of who I am, and that just adds to the self-loathing. I feel trapped in my own mind, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t get out. I don’t even feel like I have a real self anymore—like I’m not even a person, just a collection of broken pieces that don’t fit together. I try to move forward, but it’s like my trauma pulls me back every time. I’m stuck in a cycle I don’t know how to break. I just want to be free of it.

 

[light]

same its over for life mate

 

[despisedpaul]

what do you mean? trauma doesnt affect you as an adult just grow up and get over it. this is why women who get raped as a child completely get over it and never talk about it again, and why women without a father grow up perfectly well adjusted and dont become whores

 

[Tetsuya Koalagami]

Your average generic therapist covered by state funding and insurance isn't going to help either, they get the shittiest diploma mill training and get burnt out after seeing 500 clients and can barely remember who you were. They're like emotional prostitutes or emotional sex slaves tied to the bed like those noodlewhores for japanese soldiers or the pollacks for the nazi joy division in the concentration camps, getting trains run on them client after client, getting glazed in verbal diarrhea and emotional cum while they're so coked out on stimulants and psychiatric meds to get through the day and they barely feel you coming into the room. They can't even help the average normie with generic self esteem problems, they can't help you with real problems based in physical reality.

If you want a shot at help, don't waste your money on therapy. But if you do therapy, you have to go to the ones that the rich people go to, the kind of therapists who charge $250-$400/hour and don't take insurances, which is money that nobody on this forum has because we're all poor or nobody will hire us, which then makes us poor

 

[Mecoja]

I feel the same. I completely gave up on life decades ago because of constant emotional abuse and manipulation, guilt tripping and everyone around me were mad all the time, and situation is now irreversible.