Like people irl seem to pity me, I sometimes get smiled at by strangers but it's not a normal smile it's the kind of smile you'd expect them to give someone with dwarfism or something, and I'm not even physically disabled or anything I guess I'm just so fucking subhuman that to some people I must genuinely look slow, the vast majority of people either treat me like a ghost or stare at me blankly or with a mildly angry or disgusted face so because of that I can only come to the logical conclusion that these few smiles I do get from people are not "good" smiles and are smiles of pity because they think I'm some kind of downie or something
