Part of the life of a loser

[special needs 87]

After a long day from school, with no social interactions at all, no talking all day, I go back home to bedrot because I'm a lonely person with no friends, who grew up having no friends. Someone who could've achieved a lot in life. But with the sadness inside, I gave up.. I developed autism, I became weird. I lost all my social skills. I can't think anymore. I can't describe what I'm feeling. Talking hurts me. Every word I say is heavy, Remembering how people treated me since I was child. From kids to adults. I remember I used to cry everyday after school in a garage. And when I grew up I realised it only gets worse.

From that pain. One night I decided to go cycling, I went biking rethinking about my life and every reminder of the reality a tear drops from my eyes. at the age of 13. A day that changed my entire life. I decided to go for a sprint as fast as I can. going fast and crying wishing that a car comes by hitting me and so my life ends. It didn't come but I've fallen. My forearm and leg both broke in half. I cried, I cried as I never did. I got left alone. on that street. Crying and Crying until a guy went by who called an ambulance and saved me. On that period I got depressed, I got even more isolated, I lost most of my friends on that time. And I got left in the bed no moving for a long time. My dreams dissappeared just like that. From that time I wanted to be jacked and until now I didn't become. I'm a failure. I am. My life is. I'm broke. I'm so broke that I've didn't reach my biggest dream. I hope my days will ends soon. Have a good day.

 

[AutismKing]

Brutal.
Going outside is suifuel. Good day for you as well.

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

After a long day from school, with no social interactions at all, no talking all day, I go back home to bedrot because I'm a lonely person with no friends, who grew up having no friends. Someone who could've achieved a lot in life. But with the sadness inside, I gave up.. I developed autism, I became weird. I lost all my social skills. I can't think anymore. I can't describe what I'm feeling. Talking hurts me. Every word I say is heavy, Remembering how people treated me since I was child. From kids to adults. I remember I used to cry everyday after school in a garage. And when I grew up I realised it only gets worse.

From that pain. One night I decided to go cycling, I went biking rethinking about my life and every reminder of the reality a tear drops from my eyes. at the age of 13. A day that changed my entire life. I decided to go for a sprint as fast as I can. going fast and crying wishing that a car comes by hitting me and so my life ends. It didn't come but I've fallen. My forearm and leg both broke in half. I cried, I cried as I never did. I got left alone. on that street. Crying and Crying until a guy went by who called an ambulance and saved me. On that period I got depressed, I got even more isolated, I lost most of my friends on that time. And I got left in the bed no moving for a long time. My dreams dissappeared just like that. From that time I wanted to be jacked and until now I didn't become. I'm a failure. I am. My life is. I'm broke. I'm so broke that I've didn't reach my biggest dream. I hope my days will ends soon. Have a good day.

The school is terrible overall and it was basically the main reason for the depression I’m dealing with

I didn’t have any friends there, I often heard people talking about my appearance and on top of that I was basically forced not to complain because if I did, I’d be labeled as the weirdo of the class

Every day was hell there, I basically spent all my time alone with no friends. Every time I walked home, I’d get there and cry because of how insufficient I felt. That place is horrible and I hate everything I went through there

Many times I just wanted to disappear from everything and everyone

 

[FastBlast]

Brutal koala lore. I am sorry that happened to you

 

[special needs 87]

The school is terrible overall and it was basically the main reason for the depression I’m dealing with

I didn’t have any friends there, I often heard people talking about my appearance and on top of that I was basically forced not to complain because if I did, I’d be labeled as the weirdo of the class

Every day was hell there, I basically spent all my time alone with no friends. Every time I walked home, I’d get there and cry because of how insufficient I felt. That place is horrible and I hate everything I went through there

Many times I just wanted to disappear from everything and everyone.

I'm really sorry. I experienced much of that too. The only advice I can give you to help you mentally, which what I did is just reconnect with nature. It sound like cope. But It helped my mental health a lot. I hope it is available for you. But I really recommend that.

 

[special needs 87]

Brutal koala lore. I am sorry that happened to you

Thank you I appreciate it. Hope it gets better one day

 

[incel3roar]

Its ovER but to cope you have this website, I hope you can find happiness

 

[special needs 87]

Its ovER but to cope you have this website, I hope you can find happiness

I'm really happy I joined this website. I'm finding people who cares who are genuinely trying to help. I used to read threads on .org. but I never wanted to make an account. Until these days. And I actually don't regret it at all.
Thank you I hope the best for you too

 

[special needs 87]

Brutal.
Going outside is suifuel. Good day for you as well.

Sadly true.

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

I'm really sorry. I experienced much of that too. The only advice I can give you to help you mentally, which what I did is just reconnect with nature. It sound like cope. But It helped my mental health a lot. I hope it is available for you. But I really recommend that.

To be perfectly honest the only solution is ropemaxing, it's over for me all the time

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

To be perfectly honest the only solution is ropemaxing, it's over for me all the time

 

[psycho123]

To be perfectly honest the only solution is ropemaxing, it's over for me all the time

 

[NervWraith]

Brutal.
Going outside is suifuel.

 

[nazianime]

School is built to cut you down not educate you.

 

[bruno eurich]

Your story is very powerful. Thanks for sharing it.

 

[imlame]

After a long day from school, with no social interactions at all, no talking all day, I go back home to bedrot because I'm a lonely person with no friends, who grew up having no friends. Someone who could've achieved a lot in life. But with the sadness inside, I gave up.. I developed autism, I became weird. I lost all my social skills. I can't think anymore. I can't describe what I'm feeling. Talking hurts me. Every word I say is heavy, Remembering how people treated me since I was child. From kids to adults. I remember I used to cry everyday after school in a garage. And when I grew up I realised it only gets worse.

From that pain. One night I decided to go cycling, I went biking rethinking about my life and every reminder of the reality a tear drops from my eyes. at the age of 13. A day that changed my entire life. I decided to go for a sprint as fast as I can. going fast and crying wishing that a car comes by hitting me and so my life ends. It didn't come but I've fallen. My forearm and leg both broke in half. I cried, I cried as I never did. I got left alone. on that street. Crying and Crying until a guy went by who called an ambulance and saved me. On that period I got depressed, I got even more isolated, I lost most of my friends on that time. And I got left in the bed no moving for a long time. My dreams dissappeared just like that. From that time I wanted to be jacked and until now I didn't become. I'm a failure. I am. My life is. I'm broke. I'm so broke that I've didn't reach my biggest dream. I hope my days will ends soon. Have a good day.

 

[SubhumanOldcel]

Have a good day.

 

[just_a_little_ill]

Brutal.
Going outside is suifuel. Good day for you as well.

what if its just nature and no ppl?

 

[AutismKing]

what if its just nature and no ppl?

Then it is perfect, but people are everywhere in most cities.
Hard to find a place to be alone in

 

[just_a_little_ill]

Then it is perfect, but people are everywhere in most cities.
Hard to find a place to be alone in

just go away from the city for 1 day lmao that cant be that hard or if you live in the extremly big city there are parks maybe too but they contain ppl

 

[AutismKing]

just go away from the city for 1 day lmao that cant be that hard or if you live in the extremly big city there are parks maybe too but they contain ppl

Unfortunately I live with my parents and don't have the financial conditions at the moment.
But this is what I aspire to do.

 

[just_a_little_ill]

Unfortunately I live with my parents and don't have the financial conditions at the moment.
But this is what I aspire to do.

i meant going out for just 1 day or 2 in the week on the bicycle outside, im in the netherlands so bike is the best option. but just going outside for a few hours