I just can;'t stand this insanity anymore, I'm tired of being a SUB4 male I want to be a gigachad like Sean O Pry, Dolph Lungdren and all that shit but no I can;t even betabuxx man. It's truly over and I don't know why I'm still alive. If someone told me 10 years later I'd still be a fucking virgin I'd laugh at him, here I still am. Nothing changed, thingss became even worse, I became a truecel 5'5'' on top of being ethnic which is already bad enough, there was no "magical growth spurt", all my effort went to the toilet simply because I was too shrot to even consider betabuxxing or going outside, it's fucking brutal knowing there's no self improvement - not even studying for 10 hours a day, which is the last thing you can do to maybe betabuxx and yes, it is painful - out of this, even though I want to.
All my life, all the struggles - all for nothing because I'm a sub4 male, the beyond truecel omega, the Hephaestus of the STEMcels, the Hop-Frog of the society and the drawf in the STEMcel singing "Heigh-ho, Heigh-ho It's home from work we go" every day without a single female attention. On top of that, it get worse. During my teens there was some hope I would get better by studying, however it all became hopeless once I discovered the blackpill - at my height you'd need to be at least 8/10 to betabuxx, everything below and studycelling is cope.
YOU HEARD THAT CORRECTLY: all my life, I was taught by tuotrs, all of them said I was a good student, and yet all of that studying went to the fucking toilet because of my height, face and race. If anything that proves that i'm so shitty I should not bother doing anything in life at all, I wasn't supposed to be born anyways, i'm a literal 3 month premature birth, what else is there to say?
