I'm not going to overemphasize the goal because I've mentioned it many times before.
I'm openly delusional, because I refuse to live in an unfair reality, but I'm not ignorant to the reality of things, and I feel as if incels make an automatic differentiation in their head that we're different, or "When this guy suffered like me, he'll understand", when suffering is the main reason I want to do this.
The ironic thing is I was so self improvement focused at 17 that I was an incel in denial. That's pretty asinine. Because you can look at my face, my autism, my experiences, but the reason I joined was out of curiously but I related so well that I stayed around, meaning my experiences were completely out of unfair circumstances and not mentality. The only reason I'm an incel is because the world is unfair. If I was a NT normie, I would have been successful by now.
I've heard a couple times "You're redpilled, just make your self improvement channel and leave. Why are you here?" I feel like that's an invalidating and ridiculous to downright hurtful claim to make, because I know that self improvement doesn't work for a truecel. if self improvement worked, I would have got results, and I wouldn't have stuck around in the first place. I'm here because I'm a truecel, and I want to share information of what I'm planning, because I want other incels and ugly people to join me in revolting against an unfair society. Self improvement obviously doesn't work for truecels, that's why a movement needs to be made. I won't be able to solve inceldom alone, and I won't be able to fight for Ugly rights if ugly people don't rise up and fight against lookism.
I experience the pain of looking in the mirror at my objectively very ugly face. I'm Cuffem level. I would objectively be around 3/10 facially, maybe 2.9. I'm uglier than you, I'm more autistic then you, if you have a parent that loves you, I have none. If you had friends in school, I had none. I've self harmed before. I've experienced depressive episodes. I've experienced stress to the point of heart palpitations. I've been suicidal on multiple occasions. I've eaten lunch with a jacket over my head in the school washroom, playing with toilet paper in my hands. Having panic attacks and screaming episodes, taking naps in my school bathroom because of social anxiety. My Dad was abusive, so when it was 1 week at Mom's, 1 week at Dad's, I've witnessed his abusive behavior, my sister literally opening the door and running away on multiple occasions, my Mom calling the police on my Dad multiple times making me realize how broken my family actually is. Watching hours of self improvement content at 16, wanting to cure depression on my own, only for it to mean nothing in the end. I don't even care about the suffering, I just hate that God rewarded me for the suffering with an extremely ugly face and extreme autism. I'm not a high functioning autist, probably medium level. On top of living a fucked up life, I made one of the worst decisions of my life by listening to the people in the FitxFearless server to go on call as an ugly autist. So there's humiliation within one's workplace or school, but my humiliation extends to different countries. Someone from Asia or the USA could watch the video and laugh, so I'm like a worldwide bully victim.
"You don't even look that bad for a nigger/Your face isn't even that bad/He wasn't even ugly anyways.", you're blind because I'm very ugly, with not much I can even do besides cosmetic surgery.
"Hopefully your idea works and you don't live the same fate as us/You just haven't been crushed by reality yet" My fate was probably on the same level/worse than yours. I'm probably traumatized, which is why I have this delusional coping mechanism.
"You're cringe, edgy, or retarded. Why do you write such long paragraphs?" That shows I have genuine autism. I try to be normal but I can't. An autistic brain is different to a normal brain.
I don't believe myself to be different to you, experiences wise, because my life was objectively 1 big pile of shit. It makes sense that the mentality I have is the mentality I have, because it's kinda like a survival mechanism. If I was a normal person, I would have killed myself like a normal person. But to be alive after all of that signifies that I'm not a normal person.
Basically I've had a shitty life, and we're not different in the fact that we both had shit lives. God wanted life to be over for me from the start. Assuming I had a good family life and a good school experience, I would still be ugly. Assuming I've been through everything I've been through and I wasn't ugly, I would still have trauma from the experiences I've been through. Assuming I wasn't ugly and had no bad experiences, I would still have strong autism. Assuming I didn't have autism, I would still be short. Assuming I wasn't short, I would still be black and some liberal normies have normal lives and complain about being black. But my life is over. Not even mentioning that girls laughed at my face online and in real life. When I'm out in public, drivers and people stare at my face. I was taking the bus yesterday and at the bus stop, one of the drivers was a father of an Indian family who drove past me. They were looking at me, and the family was laughing and I know they were talking about me. I should have put up the middle finger. There were people on discord who after finding out about me being suicidal, started a rumor that I was "Suicidal for attention." a couple months ago. The mockery and humiliation even going back to the 3rd grade when I was in special ed class. If I dig, I could find more things that made my life shit.
My life is over, so why do I live? Because this is the conclusion of my suffering, ie, my purpose of existence. Being born with this face was unfair. My experiences were unfair. The world is unfair. Society is unfair. So like a Kamikaze who explodes himself not knowing if he'll kill the enemy, I want to revolt against this unfair society, and if I die failing, I would be satisfied because at least I tried to fight against this unfair world. But that's the misconception. I did suffer a lot, the unfairness is why I want to do this, because I refuse to accept an unfair world. I would rather fight against the unfair world and fail and die, then not try to fight against this unfair world which killed my hopes and dreams due to unfair circumstances. Ugly people should be allowed to live good lives, so I should fight to make that happen. I am a truecel, who's went through hell and negative experience after negative experience since I was born, that's why the only desire I have is revolting and creating a movement against this unfair world. If you've suffered in this unfair world, it makes sense to join the guy who's trying to fight against it.
I'm openly delusional, because I refuse to live in an unfair reality, but I'm not ignorant to the reality of things, and I feel as if incels make an automatic differentiation in their head that we're different, or "When this guy suffered like me, he'll understand", when suffering is the main reason I want to do this.
The ironic thing is I was so self improvement focused at 17 that I was an incel in denial. That's pretty asinine. Because you can look at my face, my autism, my experiences, but the reason I joined was out of curiously but I related so well that I stayed around, meaning my experiences were completely out of unfair circumstances and not mentality. The only reason I'm an incel is because the world is unfair. If I was a NT normie, I would have been successful by now.
I've heard a couple times "You're redpilled, just make your self improvement channel and leave. Why are you here?" I feel like that's an invalidating and ridiculous to downright hurtful claim to make, because I know that self improvement doesn't work for a truecel. if self improvement worked, I would have got results, and I wouldn't have stuck around in the first place. I'm here because I'm a truecel, and I want to share information of what I'm planning, because I want other incels and ugly people to join me in revolting against an unfair society. Self improvement obviously doesn't work for truecels, that's why a movement needs to be made. I won't be able to solve inceldom alone, and I won't be able to fight for Ugly rights if ugly people don't rise up and fight against lookism.
I experience the pain of looking in the mirror at my objectively very ugly face. I'm Cuffem level. I would objectively be around 3/10 facially, maybe 2.9. I'm uglier than you, I'm more autistic then you, if you have a parent that loves you, I have none. If you had friends in school, I had none. I've self harmed before. I've experienced depressive episodes. I've experienced stress to the point of heart palpitations. I've been suicidal on multiple occasions. I've eaten lunch with a jacket over my head in the school washroom, playing with toilet paper in my hands. Having panic attacks and screaming episodes, taking naps in my school bathroom because of social anxiety. My Dad was abusive, so when it was 1 week at Mom's, 1 week at Dad's, I've witnessed his abusive behavior, my sister literally opening the door and running away on multiple occasions, my Mom calling the police on my Dad multiple times making me realize how broken my family actually is. Watching hours of self improvement content at 16, wanting to cure depression on my own, only for it to mean nothing in the end. I don't even care about the suffering, I just hate that God rewarded me for the suffering with an extremely ugly face and extreme autism. I'm not a high functioning autist, probably medium level. On top of living a fucked up life, I made one of the worst decisions of my life by listening to the people in the FitxFearless server to go on call as an ugly autist. So there's humiliation within one's workplace or school, but my humiliation extends to different countries. Someone from Asia or the USA could watch the video and laugh, so I'm like a worldwide bully victim.
"You don't even look that bad for a nigger/Your face isn't even that bad/He wasn't even ugly anyways.", you're blind because I'm very ugly, with not much I can even do besides cosmetic surgery.
"Hopefully your idea works and you don't live the same fate as us/You just haven't been crushed by reality yet" My fate was probably on the same level/worse than yours. I'm probably traumatized, which is why I have this delusional coping mechanism.
"You're cringe, edgy, or retarded. Why do you write such long paragraphs?" That shows I have genuine autism. I try to be normal but I can't. An autistic brain is different to a normal brain.
I don't believe myself to be different to you, experiences wise, because my life was objectively 1 big pile of shit. It makes sense that the mentality I have is the mentality I have, because it's kinda like a survival mechanism. If I was a normal person, I would have killed myself like a normal person. But to be alive after all of that signifies that I'm not a normal person.
Basically I've had a shitty life, and we're not different in the fact that we both had shit lives. God wanted life to be over for me from the start. Assuming I had a good family life and a good school experience, I would still be ugly. Assuming I've been through everything I've been through and I wasn't ugly, I would still have trauma from the experiences I've been through. Assuming I wasn't ugly and had no bad experiences, I would still have strong autism. Assuming I didn't have autism, I would still be short. Assuming I wasn't short, I would still be black and some liberal normies have normal lives and complain about being black. But my life is over. Not even mentioning that girls laughed at my face online and in real life. When I'm out in public, drivers and people stare at my face. I was taking the bus yesterday and at the bus stop, one of the drivers was a father of an Indian family who drove past me. They were looking at me, and the family was laughing and I know they were talking about me. I should have put up the middle finger. There were people on discord who after finding out about me being suicidal, started a rumor that I was "Suicidal for attention." a couple months ago. The mockery and humiliation even going back to the 3rd grade when I was in special ed class. If I dig, I could find more things that made my life shit.
My life is over, so why do I live? Because this is the conclusion of my suffering, ie, my purpose of existence. Being born with this face was unfair. My experiences were unfair. The world is unfair. Society is unfair. So like a Kamikaze who explodes himself not knowing if he'll kill the enemy, I want to revolt against this unfair society, and if I die failing, I would be satisfied because at least I tried to fight against this unfair world. But that's the misconception. I did suffer a lot, the unfairness is why I want to do this, because I refuse to accept an unfair world. I would rather fight against the unfair world and fail and die, then not try to fight against this unfair world which killed my hopes and dreams due to unfair circumstances. Ugly people should be allowed to live good lives, so I should fight to make that happen. I am a truecel, who's went through hell and negative experience after negative experience since I was born, that's why the only desire I have is revolting and creating a movement against this unfair world. If you've suffered in this unfair world, it makes sense to join the guy who's trying to fight against it.
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stuff people tend to speak is redirection because most normies are incapable of copeing to comprehend the brutality of the blackpill despite it always coming to collect if your genetic roll of the dice was shit. Though these types of people have best your best interests in mind. From what it sounds like being within the redpill communities has done more harm to you that you may have difficulty recovering from.
