I realized how much of a lying fool I am, there’s nothing better than that, feeling acknowledged and loved by the girl of your dreams, an exchange of love with a human being with the same moving force that made life and the universe possible.
I had a soul crushing day yesterday and my brain is obviously trying to make me survive with a desperate last attempt, I don’t know how many chemicals it flushed on my cortex, but I dreamed of her texting me again going like
“Oii dear, I know it’s been a long time since, but would you like to spend this night at my place? We play games together.”
Something like that, it wasn’t a necessarily sexual message but rather a heartfelt invitation to stay together and cuddle each other.
This felt as a serotonin oxytocin orgasm, I don’t know exactly how to explain, but like you decided to take the hardest depression drug and od the entire stock, it felt like suddenly every problem was going away, that I was a human being after all, that this hell I went through was just temporary, that I found myself again.
Im writing this fresh from the dream I just woke up. That felt godly, not in the hedonistic meaning, but as everything was in the right place and time, even tho I was still stressing out over my appearance, but there’s nothing as such, and if u live your existence without it you are a crippled disabled man, that is the healthiest thing it could happen for your brain.
If I truly had this theres no thing I wouldn’t have achieved, Im a failed man, 24, beyond repair.
We must avenge our Inceldom.
I had a soul crushing day yesterday and my brain is obviously trying to make me survive with a desperate last attempt, I don’t know how many chemicals it flushed on my cortex, but I dreamed of her texting me again going like
“Oii dear, I know it’s been a long time since, but would you like to spend this night at my place? We play games together.”
Something like that, it wasn’t a necessarily sexual message but rather a heartfelt invitation to stay together and cuddle each other.
This felt as a serotonin oxytocin orgasm, I don’t know exactly how to explain, but like you decided to take the hardest depression drug and od the entire stock, it felt like suddenly every problem was going away, that I was a human being after all, that this hell I went through was just temporary, that I found myself again.
Im writing this fresh from the dream I just woke up. That felt godly, not in the hedonistic meaning, but as everything was in the right place and time, even tho I was still stressing out over my appearance, but there’s nothing as such, and if u live your existence without it you are a crippled disabled man, that is the healthiest thing it could happen for your brain.
If I truly had this theres no thing I wouldn’t have achieved, Im a failed man, 24, beyond repair.
We must avenge our Inceldom.
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