Brutal Nothing hurts more than the waves of hope

[sneed (not chuck)]

After all the rejection, after all the proof of the blackpill, after life as a 5ft1 blackcel, I should know that ITS OVER. However, I am a biological being, which means that my instinct to reproduce will not die. Ever now and again, I will be TORTURED by hope. Waves that MAYBE I have been looking at things the wrong way and I have hope. I download Tinder, I start thinking about joining a local hiking club, maybe 2023 will be the year I ascend. A kiss is all I need

Then the truth dawns on me. Its not going to happen. Its OVER. Ive tried all of this already. There is nothing I can say or do to erase the fact that I am 5ft1. I wish the hope would just die and I could settle into this life. But the fucking hope does not go away. I keep believing I can change things. Its brutal.

 

[subhuman]

I don’t have any hope. I know it’s over

 

[AnotherInsertCel]

Foids are a turn off.

 

[sneed (not chuck)]

What do you do for work? What's your educational background?

Don't want to be specific, but I have a technical writing related job. I have a PhD in English and a BSc.

 

[happiless]

No I'm tortured by lack of hope