Venting No female companion is physically destroying me at this point

[Giracel]

I am 22 and I already feel old and deteriorating. Spending formative years alone has aged me mentally, but I am also feeling the physical effects. I grademaxxed in school because it's the only thing I was ever good at so I use it as a cope, but it's taken a toll. I can barely sleep most nights, I have like one good full night of sleep a week maybe, then it's back to insomnia even when I go to sleep early, because I wake back up at 1 am and stay awake (as right now). I get headaches a lot from the poor sleep and/or completely innocuous stuff, eating a fucking MUFFIN for breakfast… like I literally can't get away with anything.

Then there's random stuff that will happen like I open a door the wrong way and my back muscle goes into a spasm. This happened yesterday and when I got to my room, all I wanted was a cute girlfriend to press on my back and make me feel better but there was NO ONE because I am forced to be ALONE. It is still tensed up even after resting, why can't I have a compassionate hapa girlfriend that will rub my back and help me sleep I can't fucking take this.

And we know it's wrong. We act like it's normal in modern society for males my age and even older to be virgins, the people will just look at me, see I have good grades and a lab assistant job, and couldn't care less that every day of my life is psychological hell (because surely if outwardly successful, everything is fine).

 

[Giracel]

Brutal being ignored even here

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Better find a good cope, it's good to be prepared for the worst.

 

[Giracel]

Better find a good cope, it's good to be prepared for the worst.

I used to cope with learning obscure geography and cultures. One of my favorites was the Livonian coast remnant, your name reminds me of that.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

I used to cope with learning obscure geography and cultures. One of my favorites was the Livonian coast remnant, your name reminds me of that.

lol
This is it
We both have similar interests.

Old Prussians - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[Nah Id Win]

I am 22 and I already feel old and deteriorating. Spending formative years alone has aged me mentally, but I am also feeling the physical effects. I grademaxxed in school because it's the only thing I was ever good at so I use it as a cope, but it's taken a toll. I can barely sleep most nights, I have like one good full night of sleep a week maybe, then it's back to insomnia even when I go to sleep early, because I wake back up at 1 am and stay awake (as right now). I get headaches a lot from the poor sleep and/or completely innocuous stuff, eating a fucking MUFFIN for breakfast… like I literally can't get away with anything.

Then there's random stuff that will happen like I open a door the wrong way and my back muscle goes into a spasm. This happened yesterday and when I got to my room, all I wanted was a cute girlfriend to press on my back and make me feel better but there was NO ONE because I am forced to be ALONE. It is still tensed up even after resting, why can't I have a compassionate hapa girlfriend that will rub my back and help me sleep I can't fucking take this.

And we know it's wrong. We act like it's normal in modern society for males my age and even older to be virgins, the people will just look at me, see I have good grades and a lab assistant job, and couldn't care less that every day of my life is psychological hell (because surely if outwardly successful, everything is fine).

Its ok date lego

 

[Giracel]

lol
This is it
We both have similar interests.

https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/5/5f/Livonian_flag_map.png

Only Latvia recognizes them today, although I understand they used to preside over much of the Baltic

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/5/5f/Livonian_flag_map.png

Only Latvia recognizes them today, although I understand they used to preside over much of the Baltic

But doesn't recognises Russians as citizens
It's funny thing - how Latvia has largest amount of non-citizens without any citizenship in the world (by percentage).

Non-citizens (Latvia) - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

But it's understandable. Right behind their border is a Russia, and they do know very well - what does it mean having large amount of Russian minority (remember Donetsk & Lugansk, Abkhasia & Osetia and Transnistria).

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

By they way, knowing your cope i shall you recommend 2 positions. I ate them almost at once, despite being somewhat huge:

There was also another book - George Minois - History of Loneliness, but it seems that it was translated only to Polish
I don't understand why, maybe Poles are more prone to weird books about life sense & isolating yourself deliberately.

 

[Giracel]

But doesn't recognises Russians as citizens

That's funny but yes definitely understandable. I personally think the way the Livonians just disappeared as a political entity is very strange given their former precedence.

 

[Giracel]

There was also another book - George Minois - History of Loneliness, but it seems that it was translated only to Polish
I don't understand why, maybe Poles are more prone to weird books about life sense & isolating yourself deliberately.

If I try to personify "incel" as a country, Poland is honestly what first comes to mind

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

If I try to personify "incel" as a country, Poland is honestly what first comes to mind

 

[Giracel]

By they way, knowing your cope i shall you recommend 2 positions. I ate them almost at once, despite being somewhat huge:
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Btw how did you post that image of the cover, I wanted to post the flag map as an image but just gave up with the link eventually, assuming not enough posts for image rights yet?

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Btw how did you post that image, I wanted to post the flag map as an image but just gave up with the link eventually, assuming not enough posts for image rights yet?

Ctrl+C on an image, Ctrl + V on reply tab.
.webp images doesn't work

 

[Giracel]

Ctrl+C on an image, Ctrl + V on reply tab.
.webp images doesn't work

I'm not allowed to paste in here (yet) it seems

 

[PolnischeKartoffel]

Over and brutal

I feel that pain because I'm at the same age and my copes are running out

 

[VλREN]

Same NNN is really making me feel it right now

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

It will get worse

 

[Giracel]

Same NNN is really making me feel it right now

Oh, I am also doing it. I promised myself two weeks, we will see after that.

 

[Slut_Annihilator298]

I've been struggling with sleep for a week now, which has never happened. At least I'm not overthinking anymore. My mind feels more free. No wonder why I'd stay up so much throughout my high school years despite having school at 8 am lmfao.

 

[Shinichi]

Literally going through the same thing but I’m 27. The issue with me is that I recently realized that I need to mental relationship with a good more than I need sex. This is even harder to get since it’s even harder to obtain.

 

[Blitz]

I am 22 and I already feel old and deteriorating. Spending formative years alone has aged me mentally, but I am also feeling the physical effects. I grademaxxed in school because it's the only thing I was ever good at so I use it as a cope, but it's taken a toll. I can barely sleep most nights, I have like one good full night of sleep a week maybe, then it's back to insomnia even when I go to sleep early, because I wake back up at 1 am and stay awake (as right now). I get headaches a lot from the poor sleep and/or completely innocuous stuff, eating a fucking MUFFIN for breakfast… like I literally can't get away with anything.

Then there's random stuff that will happen like I open a door the wrong way and my back muscle goes into a spasm. This happened yesterday and when I got to my room, all I wanted was a cute girlfriend to press on my back and make me feel better but there was NO ONE because I am forced to be ALONE. It is still tensed up even after resting, why can't I have a compassionate hapa girlfriend that will rub my back and help me sleep I can't fucking take this.

And we know it's wrong. We act like it's normal in modern society for males my age and even older to be virgins, the people will just look at me, see I have good grades and a lab assistant job, and couldn't care less that every day of my life is psychological hell (because surely if outwardly successful, everything is fine).

It's only going to get worse so find a good cope

 

[Giracel]

Literally going through the same thing but I’m 27. The issue with me is that I recently realized that I need to mental relationship with a good more than I need sex. This is even harder to get since it’s even harder to obtain.

I'm the opposite. When I was younger I actually was somewhat of a romantic and really did crave that mental/emotional connection. But these days it's more about physical aspects for me, sex or otherwise (touch in general).

Having spent so much time alone, I'm mentally hardened to the point I don't need the emotional aspect (as much). But sexual instinct on the other hand is not as malleable. I also had very latent development, so that's probably why sex itself was less important to me in younger years. The paradigm of starting out as the so-called horny teen and gaining emotional maturity with age seems to have been inverted in my case.

 

[BPJ]

lol
This is it
We both have similar interests.

Old Prussians - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

those r my ancestors