No beauty on the inside or out

[qbicus]

I absolutely hate my body and the biggest cope I get for it is "you have to work on your self on the inside that is what counts." My mind is a robotic slush, its ony good for copying others or making mudhuts. If a society and or race were clones of me we would still be hunter and gatherers that use shit to build homes and never figured out how to make a sewage system. I try to take up hobbies, reading, and writing but its a constant reminder on how empty and dull I really am on the inside, and how my mind can't read higher end english. It is unable to process information and remember things. It is extremely superficial. I can't design, I can't create, and everything I make does not sit well, not as good and authentic as good creators. It's just a reflection of how soulless I am. Why can't my mother outright tell me "You are a fucking subhuman, are are an abomination, you will not amount to anything and your life is going to be unfulfilling due to the shitty bloodline." Is that so fucking hard? Every beautiful thing I take turns into an ugly abomination. Only clothes I look good in are homeless clothing and the aesthetic is only as good as a crack addict. Wouldn't it be nice to inherit resourcefulness and mental stamina at least to make up for my empty dull niggertized appearance. Does my personality and behavior have to match up with how I look as well? I can't stand living like this anymore, not another day, but im afraid my soul, ghost, or whatever the fuck it is will just be an extension of me. That my identity is real and will be saved under gods magic fucking cloud. So much for having a savior if my mutt genes prohibit me from being authentic.

 

[im done]

will read later

 

[der_komische]

fock off ya cunt

 

[just lonely]

a lot of trucels are good human beings. they are hated because of how they look.

 

[Celasius]

Internal beauty will only manifest itself if you’re beautiful on the outside.

 

[SociallyStupid]

Yeah, some people mog me even just by talking. Talked with a woman who has a boyfriend, but even if she hadn't I already knew that she was out of my league as her texts were incredibly fun to read even when she talked about mundane things. I think that's what women mean when they talk about "personality".

 

[qbicus]

Internal beauty will only manifest itself if you’re beautiful on the outside.

more to do with mental capacity and how it is able to transition between situations easily

Yeah, some people mog me even just by talking. Talked with a woman who has a boyfriend, but even if she hadn't I already knew that she was out of my league as her texts were incredibly fun to read even when she talked about mundane things. I think that's what women mean when they talk about "personality".

I just find my self dry, it wouldnt be bad to be dry if I was able to be an introvert without being a hedonist to contain my spergetteos in my pocket. Have an active imagination or make my inner world less bleak. But that is not the case. If I seem somewhat interesting that will be short lived and will be forgotten about 20 minutes in. I'm surprised she did not ignore you or maybe her intentions are different, but good job on being able to keep up with that. My replies would be "yeah" or "maybe you should." But women automatically are able to be good communicators so again even women have a natural personality. God gave us the empty shit end of the stick like always.

a lot of trucels are good human beings. they are hated because of how they look.

im not a good human being, again gay cope

 

[SociallyStupid]

I'm surprised she did not ignore you or maybe her intentions are different, but good job on being able to keep up with that.

All ignored me after some time. Some faster, some a bit later. One only essentially ignored me after she saw a selfie of me, it was probably the furthest I ever got.