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22 year old KHHV Neetcel Dilemma (Long Post) Only read if you want to legit help me weigh out the options and care to offer advice or console me:
I bought a ticket for this thing back in October and the concert is in March. I bought the ticket sort of impulsively because I knew it would sell out fast and do want to go in an ideal world. Inb4 "normie"...no I would be going by myself which is even more pathetic. I've only been to 1 other show before in my life and this was over 4 years ago when I was 18. I also had 1 friend at the time and convinced him to go with me since he also liked the artist. It was a good experience overall but at least I did not feel alone. There was one point in the show where me and my friend drifted apart and I ended up in the front where I was actually made fun of for a minute or so by some tall skinny white guy and two girls that he was standing with. The girls laughed at me in my face and poked fun of my weight and the guy said something to me but it got too loud for me to hear it. It was over almost instantly and I just froze and luckily it was at the end of the show or it would have been entirely ruined for me. I just sort of stood on the sidelines completely defeated and the "vibe" was completely ruined for me. But overall, the experience balanced out in the end.
This time I have no friend to go with, the concert is in a place I'm not really familiar with, getting to and from the show isn't going to be that convenient for me, the show ends at 1 A.M. in a not so good area, I will have to get vaccinated to go, and I feel like I'm too depressed/high inhib to even go. I also don't want something similar to happen like the last time out of fear in being made fun of and feeling inferior and possibly going into a rage mode and attacking someone if that ever happened again because I'm honestly done with life at this point. I am sorta making excuses because In theory I do really want to go but reality is just so brutal... I also don't smoke weed or drink and don't really want to be surrounded by normies that are doing the same in a tightly packed crowd. (Having to inhale weed second-hand and rubbing up against other people ) This concert is not like some outdoor thing or specifically for college aged-kids or something, it's just an indoor venue in a big major city with strangers...I also don't want to be surrounded by teens and 20 something year olds that are having the time of their life engaging in degeneracy while mogging me since I feel like I missed out on so much already. The show is 16+ I believe and the artist I'm seeing is definitely geared more towards a zoomer fanbase...
Here are the pros sorta. The thing is I've been following this artist for years now (since 2015) and they never come to where I am. Probably my favorite music act too, and they haven't been to my city in over 4 years. I will also feel like a massive pussy and possibly regret it for years If I don't go, and once again missed out on something because of being a high inhib incel failure ...I also don't want to waste the $35 ticket but I guess I could resell it before next month... There's just so many cons but I'm not sure if I'll regret it for years to come. I'm 50/50 on it at this point and need to decide soon. Please offer suggestions.
I bought a ticket for this thing back in October and the concert is in March. I bought the ticket sort of impulsively because I knew it would sell out fast and do want to go in an ideal world. Inb4 "normie"...no I would be going by myself which is even more pathetic. I've only been to 1 other show before in my life and this was over 4 years ago when I was 18. I also had 1 friend at the time and convinced him to go with me since he also liked the artist. It was a good experience overall but at least I did not feel alone. There was one point in the show where me and my friend drifted apart and I ended up in the front where I was actually made fun of for a minute or so by some tall skinny white guy and two girls that he was standing with. The girls laughed at me in my face and poked fun of my weight and the guy said something to me but it got too loud for me to hear it. It was over almost instantly and I just froze and luckily it was at the end of the show or it would have been entirely ruined for me. I just sort of stood on the sidelines completely defeated and the "vibe" was completely ruined for me. But overall, the experience balanced out in the end.
This time I have no friend to go with, the concert is in a place I'm not really familiar with, getting to and from the show isn't going to be that convenient for me, the show ends at 1 A.M. in a not so good area, I will have to get vaccinated to go, and I feel like I'm too depressed/high inhib to even go. I also don't want something similar to happen like the last time out of fear in being made fun of and feeling inferior and possibly going into a rage mode and attacking someone if that ever happened again because I'm honestly done with life at this point. I am sorta making excuses because In theory I do really want to go but reality is just so brutal... I also don't smoke weed or drink and don't really want to be surrounded by normies that are doing the same in a tightly packed crowd. (Having to inhale weed second-hand and rubbing up against other people ) This concert is not like some outdoor thing or specifically for college aged-kids or something, it's just an indoor venue in a big major city with strangers...I also don't want to be surrounded by teens and 20 something year olds that are having the time of their life engaging in degeneracy while mogging me since I feel like I missed out on so much already. The show is 16+ I believe and the artist I'm seeing is definitely geared more towards a zoomer fanbase...
Here are the pros sorta. The thing is I've been following this artist for years now (since 2015) and they never come to where I am. Probably my favorite music act too, and they haven't been to my city in over 4 years. I will also feel like a massive pussy and possibly regret it for years If I don't go, and once again missed out on something because of being a high inhib incel failure ...I also don't want to waste the $35 ticket but I guess I could resell it before next month... There's just so many cons but I'm not sure if I'll regret it for years to come. I'm 50/50 on it at this point and need to decide soon. Please offer suggestions.
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