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StuffOfNightmares
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I am thinking this will be my first and the last post on this forum because in case this blows up I don't wanna come back and be more depressed re-reading this again. I am 26YO curry living in Curryland.
inb4 too long - nobody cares. Didn't read etc. etc.
I will just write a TL;DR:
inb4 too long - nobody cares. Didn't read etc. etc.
I will just write a TL;DR:
- A little humblebrag - I am > 99 percentile in Math ability. Did not get into IIT or anything - just good at math - even IIT math. This has continued from my primary schooling to UG education. And yes, I have one of the highest scores in most of the exams for PG (in my entire college and social circle) and even college-level math. Pretty high on the spectrum but I am not autistic.
- I underwent a critical operation when I was little - when only 2 out of 6 operated survived. Has some sort of problem since them - especially with breathing and allergies. Several surgeries for unrelated stuff since then.
- Bullied since childhood. Everywhere. I mean it - everywhere. I have had the shit kicked out of me - by everyone. My parents - both dad and mom use Cricket bat, Stumps, Slippers, belt etc., once even with fire used to beat the living crap out of me once in every 2 days at one point, school-mates who throw stuff at me and once kept a sharp object where I sit and I just about sat on it (Still was painful) and even beat me once.
- My own parents think I look like shit and on several occasions have asked me to kill myself - even told me I look like a tranny etc. they have beat me up pretty regularly before important exams even in my teens. This only stopped when I was 21 and my dad tried to beat the shit out of me with the bat and I grabbed it and shoved him to the ground.
- Even my juniors tried to gang up on me - but my classmates and two friends fought them off. When I go to play, I am treated like shit - always picked last even though I play well (Cricket), nothing new here. Absolutely given no importance anywhere else. Even my cousins don't take me seriously and bully me.
The cherry on top is that my foid cousin is married to my high school bully (who is 2 years my senior). She was also encouraging him to bully me when we were studying (We all went to the same school). The bully is doing really well btw. He is in the US now earning north of 200k.
- Not a single person in my family (Apart from Mom, Day and my own brother) knows my birthday (or has celebrated it). But only my birthday is ignored. Everyone else's is celebrated. I have had 3 deaths + or - 2 days from my 16 birthday. And a few suicides too (in the family). Since then, I have not celebrated a single birthday.
- I grew up very poor - ate loaves of bread (not Indian bread or anything - just bread, sometimes toast) for 3 meals etc. And when I was 18 I was morbidly obese (most of which I've lost thanks to running and subsequent gym-celling).
- My parents did not support me financially for anything - but they did support my younger brother. He got an expensive laptop, bike, mobile etc while I barely got the most basic one If I got anything at all. Even in sports, I was doing well - but they could not support me and I pulled out of everything. My mum paid for my university education though - for which I will always be grateful.
- My college bullies are also doing very well. Most into FAANG (none of them are SWE), and earning very well - although they are complete retards. I was mogged throughout college and bullied there too. And yes, zero female attention (except for negative attention inb4 )
- Right now I have a ton of mental health problems apart from regular troubles. I can barely work at all with this depressing situation. And yes, NO FEMALE contact. I am so ducking lonely bros.
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