
vodkacel
truest slavcel of them all
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- Nov 10, 2019
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They were insanely strict and messed up my mentality.
Their ideology was education + knowledge > social connections + friends
In the result:
1. I am ugly af due to their genetics
2. I am socially retarded, cannot build friendships or how to act in social connections, developed social anxiety, I am never sure / confident of my actions (as I always relied on approvement of my parents even for simple things like buying food). I DON'T GET SOCIAL CUES. My family says that I behave weird.
= 0 female friends in my whole life
= 0 male friends for the past 5 years (last one I had in school)
- I almost never was allowed to play video games till 16 (except birthday / new year), after 16, they allowed me to play 30 min max (with a timer) per day, given that I did all my homework, house tasks, etc. Games could not be violent (no GTA) so only racing. Braking the rule = scandal + game ban for weeks.
- I was never allowed to visit friends. Between ages 6 - 18, I've visited my friends exactly 4 times. I remember clearly peeking behind my curtain at my friends playing and waiting for me.
- Having a girl friend (a friend that is a girl) was not allowed (jfl, never had one or will)
- Swearing (like saying 'shit') = scandal
- Until 23, I had to show them all of my checks (internet, shops even like supermarkets)
- Drinking alcohol was strictly prohibited until 23 (only champagne on New Years). Breaking the rule = beatings
- Until 23, I had to go to sleep by 10:00 PM, staying later would result in scandal
- I was not allowed to be angry or sad (I was once grounded for frowning at the dining table)
Their ideology was education + knowledge > social connections + friends
In the result:
1. I am ugly af due to their genetics
2. I am socially retarded, cannot build friendships or how to act in social connections, developed social anxiety, I am never sure / confident of my actions (as I always relied on approvement of my parents even for simple things like buying food). I DON'T GET SOCIAL CUES. My family says that I behave weird.
= 0 female friends in my whole life
= 0 male friends for the past 5 years (last one I had in school)