I don't think so, she doesn't reply that often, but then to a bunch of messages, just like me. It's my preferred form of communication but most people want constant talking which I am too introverted for.
It's already good. I would not regret anything because the time talking with her was nice because we could talk about our problems. Even if she will never get into a relationship with me it's a net positive. I don't think you understand I have no friends, none. It's not even that I use some time I could use for a male friend for her, I use time I spend lying in my bed doing nothing writing with her.
Thanks! Yeah, I can do nothing but continue to try even if it's hopeless.
Like I said the problem is that she is also my only friend. So I would go from one online friend and no IRL friends to no friends whatsoever. Probably it's my fault that I cannot find friends, but I really don't have the luxury to reject people who are as similar to me as she is. She is the first person ever in my life where I can be somewhat myself and maybe you don't have the same autistic traits as me, but I really don't want to lose her. In some sense I love her platonically more than romantically but also want the latter.
Oh damn, why did she pretend to like you? Because she also didn't have anyone else?