My old classmates have fancy jobs with fancy titles, some married. Meanwhile, I'm avoiding people as much as possible and playing runescape.

[Deleted member 7448]

For some reason I googled and searched on facebook for some of my old classmates. As if there isn't enough suifuel around me, this one really hurt. People my age a thousand times more succesful than me. And I too had great opportunities, only to have squandered them in the most embarrassing and humiliating ways possible. I can't even talk about my past with people, I have to lie and actively avoid any conversations about my past, avoiding any possible contact with past acquaintances.

Meanwhile, all I have going in my life is a quest to find a way to play runescape without paying $11. Failing at it too. This is a grown ass man we're talking about here, this is the kind of shit I did at 12 and I'm still doing it now. While old classmates have high-ranking positions in companies abroad and stuff like that.

 

[Joelossus]

Just a silly question, but do you even want to be in a high - ranking position? Do you care about having a fancy title? I'm asking you this because judging by your past threads i got the impression that those things aren't very Important to you. So i'm really wondering why this is such a big suicidefuel to you.

 

[ThouShallObeyKing]

but why runescape? pvp/combat in this game is so 1990

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Just a silly question, but do you even want to be in a high - ranking position? Do you care about having a fancy title? I'm asking you this because judging by your past threads i got the impression that those things aren't very Important to you. So i'm really wondering why this is such a big suicidefuel to you.

I don't know, it's just a gut reaction. Seeing these people so successful when I've been rotting at home for so many years. It's true, I'm lazy and I hate work, all I really want to do is lay in bed doing whatever I do on my laptop, play with my cat etc... But still, being so utterly overshadowed is somehow very humiliating.

but why runescape? pvp/combat in this game is so 1990

Grew up playing it. Played on and off for more than 15 years. Other than nostalgia, I really like games with progress, and runescape is the ultimate progression simulator/ wealth accumulation simulator.

 

[tooth monster]

Meanwhile, all I have going in my life is a quest to find a way to play runescape without paying $11.

Fucking brütal

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

the pain is probably from knowing those people aren't necessarily all that qualified or hardworking?

i do tons of shitty work that would make most people in IT fold because they expected an easy job where they just have to tweak someone else's work a little and call it a day

but bad connections and bad luck mean i sit around and get called stupid nicknames by my boss and get paid slightly more than a cashier

it's whatever, i just wish i had enough status and normality to qualify for a normal gf, but that's a luxury now

 

[Deleted member 7448]

the pain is probably from knowing those people aren't necessarily all that qualified or hardworking?

i do tons of shitty work that would make most people in IT fold because they expected an easy job where they just have to tweak someone else's work a little and call it a day

but bad connections and bad luck mean i sit around and get called stupid nicknames by my boss and get paid slightly more than a cashier

it's whatever, i just wish i had enough status and normality to qualify for a normal gf, but that's a luxury now

Yes, that's a big part of it I guess. Those people really did have the best of opportunities. Even when I was in class with them, my parents barely got me to that school, they got a discount cause they knew somebody. But these people were born with a silver spoon in their mouth.

Alas, a bigger part of my pain is knowing that if I hadn't become an alcoholic, if I hadn't dropped out from that uni abroad, I wouldn't have destroyed my one chance at a good life in a good country, and I could've lived like them.

 

[Mainländer]

Seeing how foids from your school times are doing is suifuel. They all live on easy mode unless they really put tons of effort into ruining their lives.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Seeing how foids from your school times are doing is suifuel. They all live on easy mode unless they really put tons of effort into ruining their lives.

Ohh yeah, they even seem to get the best jobs too. They don't even need to be smart, just confident, arrogant and bossy enough, and they get the world on a platter.

 

[Mainländer]

Ohh yeah, they even seem to get the best jobs too. They don't even need to be smart, just confident, arrogant and bossy enough, and they get the world on a platter.

My three biggest onitises: one is a doctor now, has travelled the world, etc, the second one went to the US and married a white high tier normie there and the third one is coaching through university now with plenty of friends and love affairs.

 

[Deleted member 21514]

Same lmao. I only know 1 autistic guy that has a shitty life like me, the others are enjoying life

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Yes, that's a big part of it I guess. Those people really did have the best of opportunities. Even when I was in class with them, my parents barely got me to that school, they got a discount cause they knew somebody. But these people were born with a silver spoon in their mouth.

Alas, a bigger part of my pain is knowing that if I hadn't become an alcoholic, if I hadn't dropped out from that uni abroad, I wouldn't have destroyed my one chance at a good life in a good country, and I could've lived like them.

It would be cool if you shared more about that part where you become alcoholic and out of control and why it happened, was it all just because of femoid issues? Most guys on here myself included are pretty mellow and never really defied society that much, even when it pushed them to the limit, they just took it like a good goy.

 

[Emba]

I can only afford to play

RUINS-APE

Where you are in a decayed urban hellscape looking for fruits and insects. You collect bananas and try to avoid chimpouts where you can lose all your bananas and die!

The npc apes are either blue or red and you have to avoid both and join up with other "free apes" to survive. But beware! You can't trust anyone for very long!

Because everyone wants those bananas! And everyone is out to get a fast banana!

 

[Deleted member 11032]

For some reason I googled and searched on facebook for some of my old classmates. As if there isn't enough suifuel around me, this one really hurt. People my age a thousand times more succesful than me. And I too had great opportunities, only to have squandered them in the most embarrassing and humiliating ways possible. I can't even talk about my past with people, I have to lie and actively avoid any conversations about my past, avoiding any possible contact with past acquaintances.

Meanwhile, all I have going in my life is a quest to find a way to play runescape without paying $11. Failing at it too. This is a grown ass man we're talking about here, this is the kind of shit I did at 12 and I'm still doing it now. While old classmates have high-ranking positions in companies abroad and stuff like that.

Thank you for sharing. I shall fap to this later.

 

[thebuddhacel]

Runescape is cool af ngl