I've made multiple threads that contradict each other. One portion talks about me wanting to lifemaxx and the other are suicidal threads. The reason for this is that my moods change very rapidly and I experience emotions intensely.
It's hard to explain but I've recently discovered I may have borderline tendencies. It's hard to explain what I feel every damn day but I'm basically an empty shell, looking to fill the void while feeling all of these emotions. I binge eat for pleasure because that's all that gives me joy. I have such a small attention span that I can't do anything high IQ or anything requiring a lot of investment like reading, etc.
I'm just tired of living like this. My shitty past experiences, current life circumstances, and getting mogged everyday make life hell.
Does anybody have bpd or relate? How tf do you keep going if so?
It's hard to explain but I've recently discovered I may have borderline tendencies. It's hard to explain what I feel every damn day but I'm basically an empty shell, looking to fill the void while feeling all of these emotions. I binge eat for pleasure because that's all that gives me joy. I have such a small attention span that I can't do anything high IQ or anything requiring a lot of investment like reading, etc.
I'm just tired of living like this. My shitty past experiences, current life circumstances, and getting mogged everyday make life hell.
Does anybody have bpd or relate? How tf do you keep going if so?
