lilwrist
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- Dec 13, 2022
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parents didn't care about my development through puberty they didn't feed me enough protein which is why i ended up at 5'7 and not able to gain any bicep muscles.
would of had 50,000 USD in Ethereum right now but my mom threw my ledger crypto wallet out, yup low iq parents who know nothing about technology and should ask me before they touch any of my fucking shit.
I literally have a bill due tomorrow of $500 and won't be able to pay it if I'm gone from here for a while I'll prob be in jail due to not being able to pay my bills.
fucking hate my life
my right eye side is fucked up forever my eyebrow is hanging down a little at the end because my mom threw a spoon at me and it hit my eye when i was 5 and it must of done a permeant injury.
I also have scars on my neck that are ugly I'll always have them they are apart of me now u cant get rid of scars, women will always look at my scars and think how disgusting they are.
my wrists are thin and underdeveloped overall I have thin bones exepct for my chest its naturally a v taper with small waist (prob only good thing about me)
I've never had a gf before and I'm 20 years old all my friends have gfs and constantly insult me call me a virgin cuz i have no gf (so basically i have no real friends). my parents complain that i have no gf, yet they are partially the reason i have no gf.
had a goth e-gf once that just used me to talk to her about her problems (she left me for a taller guy from norway or something) (I forever now hold a grudge against goth girls I think most of them just like to cheat on men for whatever reason so kinda ruined my attractions to goths.)
brocels i dont know wtf to do with my life. I went to college for one semester and then dropped out because my life was overwhelming, had to do my college sht and when i came home my parents yelled at me for not doing chores or helping out even tho i was at college (lmao), was broke asf, only made friends who tried to sell weed to me.
I have a shit job with barely any shifts. dont even make 15k a year. should i just be done with my life? I'm depressed every day. How do I ever make back my crypto that was thrown out? My life sucks i can't live properly everyday i hate existing. The only way left for me now is to take pills, supplements, and steroids to attempt to become a freak of a chad one last time I don't even care anymore. I WANT TO BE THE LOWEST BODY FAT % POSSIBLE. TALL ASF. HOLLOW CHEEKS. VEINS POPPING. Idc if I look like a giga monster chad designed in a lab I'll do anything to get there so only then will society stop fucking with me. I've alrdy started taking tren and waiting for my growth hormone to come in (idc if i got scammed while buying it online cuz it was supposed to be delivered 2 days ago shipping might be delayed idk) I'd take anything to just become a absolute beast. I've also been doing anorexicmaxxing and it's been working at this point I'm only eating 500 calories max a day some days I go without eating. This is ultimate suffering to become a monster giga chad. I hope i will make it brocels but depression has been hitting me hard. I've trying to find out how to cause microfractures to my legs so they grow a bit longer everytime. (If anyone has advice lmk)
I hope i make it i deserve to live a normal life just like most regular normies, we all do but we were stripped of our rights and privileges' of being able to live in this society while being seen as normal. We didn't start this war they (SOCIETY) hated us first. All the people in life who bullied / insulted you because of your height / features. They started the hate to us first. Please give me advice brocels I can't live like this anymore I'm trying everything.
would of had 50,000 USD in Ethereum right now but my mom threw my ledger crypto wallet out, yup low iq parents who know nothing about technology and should ask me before they touch any of my fucking shit.
I literally have a bill due tomorrow of $500 and won't be able to pay it if I'm gone from here for a while I'll prob be in jail due to not being able to pay my bills.
fucking hate my life
my right eye side is fucked up forever my eyebrow is hanging down a little at the end because my mom threw a spoon at me and it hit my eye when i was 5 and it must of done a permeant injury.
I also have scars on my neck that are ugly I'll always have them they are apart of me now u cant get rid of scars, women will always look at my scars and think how disgusting they are.
my wrists are thin and underdeveloped overall I have thin bones exepct for my chest its naturally a v taper with small waist (prob only good thing about me)
I've never had a gf before and I'm 20 years old all my friends have gfs and constantly insult me call me a virgin cuz i have no gf (so basically i have no real friends). my parents complain that i have no gf, yet they are partially the reason i have no gf.
had a goth e-gf once that just used me to talk to her about her problems (she left me for a taller guy from norway or something) (I forever now hold a grudge against goth girls I think most of them just like to cheat on men for whatever reason so kinda ruined my attractions to goths.)
brocels i dont know wtf to do with my life. I went to college for one semester and then dropped out because my life was overwhelming, had to do my college sht and when i came home my parents yelled at me for not doing chores or helping out even tho i was at college (lmao), was broke asf, only made friends who tried to sell weed to me.
I have a shit job with barely any shifts. dont even make 15k a year. should i just be done with my life? I'm depressed every day. How do I ever make back my crypto that was thrown out? My life sucks i can't live properly everyday i hate existing. The only way left for me now is to take pills, supplements, and steroids to attempt to become a freak of a chad one last time I don't even care anymore. I WANT TO BE THE LOWEST BODY FAT % POSSIBLE. TALL ASF. HOLLOW CHEEKS. VEINS POPPING. Idc if I look like a giga monster chad designed in a lab I'll do anything to get there so only then will society stop fucking with me. I've alrdy started taking tren and waiting for my growth hormone to come in (idc if i got scammed while buying it online cuz it was supposed to be delivered 2 days ago shipping might be delayed idk) I'd take anything to just become a absolute beast. I've also been doing anorexicmaxxing and it's been working at this point I'm only eating 500 calories max a day some days I go without eating. This is ultimate suffering to become a monster giga chad. I hope i will make it brocels but depression has been hitting me hard. I've trying to find out how to cause microfractures to my legs so they grow a bit longer everytime. (If anyone has advice lmk)
I hope i make it i deserve to live a normal life just like most regular normies, we all do but we were stripped of our rights and privileges' of being able to live in this society while being seen as normal. We didn't start this war they (SOCIETY) hated us first. All the people in life who bullied / insulted you because of your height / features. They started the hate to us first. Please give me advice brocels I can't live like this anymore I'm trying everything.