BlackPilledNeet
Wizardcel
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I haven't written a post here for a long time because this forum is full of braindead fags. I first asked Fat Link, then Master, to delete all my messages. No reaction.
I'm not a neet anymore, not for quite some time. I'm an oldcel wizard and have a good paying job for a while. But I'm more depressed than ever. I'm more depressed than I was a neet. Why? Because I'm now trapped in this fucked-up hamster wheel, I'm coming back to my lonely apartment after a day at work. No one greets me, no one is there for me. I'm alone, just like I've been alone all my life. Only my mother was always there for me. She's the only woman I love who will ever stand by me unconditionally.
So I'm caught in this hamster wheel. Every day is the same. I have to perform at work, otherwise I'm gone. No pussy, no girlfriend, no sex, no kisses, no nothing. All alone, always. How do I cope? Its tough, I make money by wageslaving, I hit the gym and I get drunk every few days just to cope and ease the pain inside me. I'm just wondering how long I'll be able to keep my job, because my bad mood and depression will be noticed by everyone in the long run.
The last time i cried was many years ago. Im kinda dead inside for many years now. Its like my heart is completely black now. I dont feel empathy.
On top of that, we live in an unfair, broken, clown world that is getting shittier every day. I'm at a loss for words, the depression hits me just as much as the desire to take another sip from the next beer bottle.
I'm not a neet anymore, not for quite some time. I'm an oldcel wizard and have a good paying job for a while. But I'm more depressed than ever. I'm more depressed than I was a neet. Why? Because I'm now trapped in this fucked-up hamster wheel, I'm coming back to my lonely apartment after a day at work. No one greets me, no one is there for me. I'm alone, just like I've been alone all my life. Only my mother was always there for me. She's the only woman I love who will ever stand by me unconditionally.
So I'm caught in this hamster wheel. Every day is the same. I have to perform at work, otherwise I'm gone. No pussy, no girlfriend, no sex, no kisses, no nothing. All alone, always. How do I cope? Its tough, I make money by wageslaving, I hit the gym and I get drunk every few days just to cope and ease the pain inside me. I'm just wondering how long I'll be able to keep my job, because my bad mood and depression will be noticed by everyone in the long run.
The last time i cried was many years ago. Im kinda dead inside for many years now. Its like my heart is completely black now. I dont feel empathy.
On top of that, we live in an unfair, broken, clown world that is getting shittier every day. I'm at a loss for words, the depression hits me just as much as the desire to take another sip from the next beer bottle.
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