there is this low-class white trash stinky possibly schizo foid in her mid 30s who misses like 40% of her teeth & sometimes sleeps in the stairwell of the building i live in (for like a few days now). she's almost always on drugs (or it at least seems like it). we never had a deep conversation as we only exchanged a few sentences, overall (but mostly just about how i asked her to move away, so i have place to go to my apartment). sometimes she asked me for money, but i never gave her shit cuz i'm a broke fuck myself. yesterday, we had "small talk" with each other for one minute for some reason. i'm not sure how dangerous she is.
now, i tried to masturbate to the thought of her but i felt disgusted by myself (as she also smells a lot), i hence stopped the handfucking afterwards. i'm thinking about this ascension strategy where i ask her if she wants to sleep in my apartment in exchange of being my gf who fucks me but i'm too scared to ask, or even potentially fuck her cuz what if she has some super infectious std? and what if she like stabs me while she claims to help me ascending? i'm a trvecel, so this is one of the few potentially realistic ascension possibilities for me.
now, i tried to masturbate to the thought of her but i felt disgusted by myself (as she also smells a lot), i hence stopped the handfucking afterwards. i'm thinking about this ascension strategy where i ask her if she wants to sleep in my apartment in exchange of being my gf who fucks me but i'm too scared to ask, or even potentially fuck her cuz what if she has some super infectious std? and what if she like stabs me while she claims to help me ascending? i'm a trvecel, so this is one of the few potentially realistic ascension possibilities for me.
